Invest quite a bit of money to my fitness equipment but again, fitness is a must for everyone or else u get sick easily.

2014 is near the corner, my target is nearer and nearer so do I desire to go for new adventure again. As currently single status ( maybe for life) , I just hope to achieve those I been keen to do for years.

Back to GOD or back to Sin

Someone said " he's waiting for you"

Back from Nepal not long ago. I'm truly blessed to see another part of my life that is more fortune than them. I'm didn't managed to get a mark 3 which I been waiting for a long times but again there is a 6D Rachel which is good enough for me to capture photo.

Will have to start focus on 2014 road and few items is quite confirm as from today which is my 5 years photo line book, my fitness and new hobby which is trekking.

I'm can't wait to make it happen again.

To earn back confident , first you need to work on it before the process being ~cam~

Yesterday incident reminds me what happen to my current group of friends.

"If meeting up is just chit chat without sharing God words then what the point of meeting up?"

I'm seriously feel offended by it because if anyone feel is a waste of time then I seriously feel is a shame. People meet up is to get latest update, encourage each other but on the other hand, I don't believe I will tell ANYONE about my dark side even we are told to do so. Isn't it ?

The reason we are not meeting up regularly and who will feel comfortable ?

Seriously I feel disappointed by my friend comment such way. The "qi dong Dian" is totally wrong so is time to say goodbye to her ...

Sometime just feel so lost in transaction in life but at least I learn not to complain but to adept it that's part of my journey.

More challenges and more time to sacfice for work only. My goodness, could I really enjoy my work anymore ?

Long time never went for photography. 

Miss my Cheryl so so much now :(

Is it true that I missing something right now ? People say is I need a woman while some say I need Jesus.

What's in my heart right now ? 

A woman in life or a life long salvation ?

Long time never updated this bloggy.

Busy month as usual and nothing more than just work , learn , explore and finish.

Recently quite a few funny issue happen but don't think I give a damn on it too.

Walk pass and already pass, nothing coming back beside the GOD of light.

School starting next week and hopefully this short course i can cope well. 

By the way, I going Nepal which is awesome !! Will there be a mark 3 ?

Lets see 

9 years in TPBC and what next's ?

Will I still stick to this voice or will I run away ? Too many things unclear, uncertain till today I fully doubt myself as a believer because I stop myself reading the bible, hardly go to church due to work commitment but again, I keep asking myself "why am I holding for" since there are so many unclear issue I holding. Will there be an answer or will I forever never get it ?

Since long ago, I did mention before, if the church ppls really bother about fellowship and care for others, my first question will be "where is it?" and my second question will be " really u care?"

Afterall, we human fails lots of things and till today (I mean so many years), everyone busy with their owe life so do I really care about activity and life because without united, nothing is possible.

I'm tired with all these shit happening.

I'm want to be who am I rather than so fake up till you don't even who u are.

My words are straight, deadly but I speak of the truth of my heart and soul.

无色的我，单独走自己人生的高和地。

过个平凡人的自由自在的生活。

There's time I keep asking "why me?"

Since he know what is my desire but the answer always the same.

I'm become a robot and just go where I called to be. No longer myself but a motionless human that Pre program.

Sad isn't it ? 

Yesterday AD really inspire me to work hard for my passion. Long time ever snap but when the moment I hold "Valerie" with rented  mark 2, the kind of blood rush flew back to my mind and soul. 

Of course the make up artist is also my type of female I really seeking for but too bad, I just let go once again.

Love you Babycamerasales, b

人开始又累了，我真的好想好想走走看看一下。太久没拍照了。

很快又要打战了。

刚刚學会冷血的招术。

我开始会 红加青 和 黄加青的变化。

太好完了。

本人是个蓝色但是我变了不在多

蓝色而是恐怖的黄加青者。

欢迎你来到我的世界级。

Every time "mobile armor" played , my mind just tell me 3 truth which is 

God is my armor

God is my hope

God is with me 

Anyway, the music is a soundtrack from Gundam unicorn and I damn attract to it

After so much consideration, I decided not to go KL marathon after looking at news about Malaysia. Too many robbery and hurting which affect me whether should i go because dad safety as I not going alone afterall. To others, is normal but to me, you must 付出责任心 if anything happen to parent so to play safe, we aborb the trip.

My instent heart told me not to go since Boston marathon bomb kill 3 people.

Well, 3 more home race so let climb from there |>

读完了一本书。about Lin Dan 林丹

It's actually reminds me to persue my dream even it take 10 years just to competed it but never regret if you didn't try it.

Less than a month, I will start to run marathon again. This year will be going 3 major races and 1 is the worst ever race I might be going .. A 50km duo.. Madness

Sometimes feel so lost in transaction. Maybe I have too much feel time to a point I keep on doing against GOD will.

Slowly the heart die off, no longer seeking a life partner as quite sure I will be alone. Fighting for so long, I end up alone again.

Friends say I picky but seriously u date to consider singa girls ? Holy shit, I don't after witness so many crap, better dont

Let the hearts change, let us bow down

Back to basic , worship the king

We are nothing but live in grace 

Forever yours, Jesus Christ

天啊 ！一大景早就给你一个 train delay

肯定会迟到的吗 ！ ！

Unlimited challenge .. ..

Sitting beside me the person stink .. Worst 

30/4/2013

失去了一位好姐姐，好牧师。她被人谋杀因为那些劳工从老板那拿不到早一点的工钱而杀她因为她手上有4000美金。

神啊，我不明白 ！公平吗？

4 men been charge and 2 suspect pending. At least her case solve. May her sould be peace in your presence, Jesus Christ.

Her legacy will be remembered in our heart and I miss the trip together with her in Cambodia in 2011 and she is so nice and understable woman !!

Pastor Wendy Ng

1951 ~ 2013

Rest in peace !! See you in heaven.

Delicate this to my buddy who die on the same date as her aka Ben lee

1983 ~ 2008

http://singaporeseen.stomp.com.sg/stomp/sgseen/this_urban_jungle/1773360/sporean_woman_murdered_in_cambodia_had_a_heart.html

Why I refuse to be a full time wedding photographer ? Another question asked

First of all, I don't really like it because I find it pretty fake as in everything seen so perfect and this world so many unbalance even come to just a simple money exchange can create a "war"

Second, the market is flooded with shity people's and I mean SHITY Fark shit. These bunch of asshole, please go and eat more grass before u charge people that kind of amateurs price and don't be a Farking idiot spoil the market.

Lastly, I prefer to snap something I feel I like not something I force to do it. There's a few experience I been Fark without a good reasons so my response, Fark u back of course. Some stupid client feel they have the 100% rights which come on, please shown some humans right ..
Nobody born to be a pig/slave and sound stupid by admit the fault yet it isn't yrs.

Just want to response about how I feel with the question been ask..

What's your true secret when come to edit a photo ? A good question been asked.
My answer will be " think outside your own world because when u edit, you do it with your soul not your hands".

Another boaster for me is trance music because I love electronic music as in you feel free to run , to think , to create.
You don't feel like been burden by something.

Take an example, you listen to love song, you feel been love , worship song become you think of GOD and trace u feel come on .. Lets go .. I love trance

一个个开始拿起自己的背包走向人生目标去。我在半路中拿起我的小Cheryl 来拍下那个不完美的我们来写作。

开始又回想到当初我还是个小伙子。
感动了,哭了，但还是要走下去到我的终点站。

有点累，有点想哭的感觉。

放气了结婚的概念因为我还是不明白基督徒一定要找回一样的信仰 ？

Those keen to marriage but couldn't find the same believes, then how ? Mean GOD plan for them not to get marriage ? Then I nothing to say .. Honestly speaking ...

Isn't that sad =.=

Tragic at Boston marathon. Feel the pain and lost my words ...

Rest in peace to the 3 people's who die.

人在世上是为了生活还是为了一个伟大的人活下来 ？

每个人说更衪是对的不过我真的很多疑问。
为什么我必须听從衪的指示？

What the point we stay alive. Hmm.

太多疑问了

Can't wait to print my own 30 yrs old gift which is my photo book

My distant world 我的遥远世界

Thinking of making 2 version ( 1 mandarin and 1 English quote) plus 1 of the copy will be send to my penpal as promise to her long ago.

Took me 2 years and it will release in sept

Stay tune :)

分开以后回到一个人的生活，我才开始知道我开心的不得了。为什么我要牵你 ？开始已经不爱我而是感恩的爱。

After a good rest , a silent moment and mystery solve. I'm know I need to massive fine tune in my life before I can berserk.

Witness a couple ran pass me while i waiting for bus, it reminds me how I miss my marathon, my battle zone and really need to endure.

我还在坚持下去，还在找回我的世界大战
纠结多了，人也累了，不明白到明白。
相信自己多过相信信仰。

像 Emma Hewitt 的 ＂等候＂的歌词
说 ＂我还在等候＂

可能我累了？我在想什么？想了一下，

是时候打开心里的心里的恨和光。。
是时后来个大开杀界的自我。

我来也 。。

纠结了 纠结了

很多为什么也很多不可以吗 ：／
接受沉默，孤单 ，自己画自己人生。

人生地不熟、纠结了。

认真的问问自己是否放下自我而追衪还是我一直都在纠结我想要的她 ？

敢爱又敢恨的自我真的。。

不懂在写什么，x的。

回到起点，看看周围的人们，想了一下就发现自己离衪又好远了，难道我放起了
那几天神在呼叫我 ＂回到我国去：）＂

x的，我又纠结了。难道，我的一生就要和衪一起跑到終點站？

不可以改吗？

Sick for the past 3 days and finally I become a dragon like no others. *haha*

Testing my new noosa 8 and fall in love with asics engineering design for such racing shoes. It's much lighter but more protection on my ankle compare to DS trainer which is a bit heavy overall.

Feel much confident with my trial and tomorrow try again.

Facing insomnia for the past 4 days and don't know what the hell happen to me.
Damn, I think I lost my count again

感谢感动和感恩。

看到自己 official babycam trailer 实在感动，好友都赞美我的做品。谢谢你们。

下一个要来了 。。 season of love !!

不知道心里xx的搞鬼啊，我又想她还好吗
难道我。。不可能！我应该是累了。
不可以吃回头草！祝她快快出嫁 ，
让我的心灵静静下来。

没有完美的事但我有完美的冥想。
热血飘飘的冲上去就是要打倒自己的心灵的伤口。

三年了，我的伤口还是有个xx的痛。
上帝，捞了我吧。

高兴因为人家喜欢我的montage, 放了101%的心来做到prefection才放下。
真的是一个贪心和完美的王八蛋。

笑自己是一个idiot。。哈哈大笑

xx的。

忙到不够休息还要赶出来，不过但我做到我要的 style 和 effect，实在高兴到 fly me into the moon 的心。

babycamera又要delay了因为太过忙没有时间来改自己的webpage。希望我可以asap一下。

明天早上晚上要fight到。。

生日快乐给自己 。三十岁了，是个老人。
我还在和人生对战争，和自己说不要放气。
很想读书，很想谈谈恋爱 ，很想哭。
可能等太久了，我还在俩手空空的。

“青春不长在，抓紧谈恋爱”

小乌龟要好好加油 ：）

买一台 mark 3 和 nossa 给自己

用心去聆听不是用信去聆听一首歌
用不一样的方法来赞美他们的词。
用心在去听一下后面的鼓,钢和声。
你会找到自我的人生道路。
回来了，走过了 ，是你吗 ？
开始又用心去走下半场吧 ：）

Went to see John clang photo photo gallery about family being together and my heart almost sank because will there be a time where I will apart with them while working oversea (all along my dream) ? I still trying to get out from here.

Perhaps is time to commit myself working on the projects that in my mind for the past few years. Fully committed.

我爷爷是我的英雄。
Seasons of Love
My distant world (photo book)

Trailer on my birthday on 28/2/2013

It's going to be a special one :)

说起摄影，好久没拍照了。忙忙碌碌的生活实在太累了。

Time to pick up Cheryl and Snap !!

读完了乐老师的性格色彩书。感觉上我的天眼看人的心又上一个 level.

简单 ，真实 ，是生活。

真的很忙 ！！
好多东西都要delay一下
可以给我一点空间吗？

但是我可是一个工作狂 ：／

情人节？我都忘记昨天是 2／14号。

老了。哈哈大笑

Recently fall in love with pure relaxation music and found another one called

Lights motion

好听到没有话说。给了一种完美的 creation

schön !!

Olafur 大师的音乐令我看到另一方面的赞美
他又给了我另一个世界的眼光和心灵的 静，光，听 和 观。

静静的赞美他的做品。

People's don't agree 心里学 ways of judging people because of their own way of looking at people thinking and behavior but the more I read , the more I disagree but rather feel is a deeper and inner skill which not many people able to master it.

Frankly speaking, i have No regret to 修练 physiology and is a kind of inner strength that helps me a lot towards my career right now. Pretty amaze by it.

To me now christianly is a 信仰 nothing much than that. I'm also getting curious about people keep saying put your faith in him and you can gain strength from him etc but isn't 信仰 is a believe and a kind of "brain" inner strength ? How about Muslim and others believes, isn't all teaches good but is human error that cause the shit of religion to be a fatal ?

I'm not saying I lost my path about my faith in christ but is just that I getting curious about it and further more, I keep asking question that I might not even able to find people to answer me. Maybe I really doubt in GOD now... Ya ..

Sometime I wonder why I believe in the first place.... Because I believe or I called to believe ...

过年了，我又要过生日了。
今年要买只手表还是买本书或一台佳能 5Dmark3？想不到啊 -_-#

明明白白我的心要的不是这些。。

昨晚 Luna Sea 开演唱会但是我没买票因为没有人要去，真是气到没话说。如果你还活着就好了，我肯定找你来看因为你也是个，X japan fans来的。可惜你不在了。

老友 ！你要 take care 啊

很多人败给魔是因为他们不认识自己而依靠他的诱惑来逃避心灵的伤害。读了乐老师的书明白现在的我和以前的我是有很大的不同因为自己长大了和成熟了。

现在我要打开自己的心结，打破自我的人生目标。我不太相信靠任何人的力量来完成但我会找那些可以谈话的人来帮我。

我变不是因为我痛过而是我真的累了。我不可能白白过一身就是等候一班人说的恩典。

刚刚做了十分鐘的打坐。感覺很舒服和平静的心。新加坡实在要好好的休息一下，那么大的压力都把人变成变态。

Last night, a nice BIC taiyo replied my FB status and I told him what happen and what going on now and is really thankful to people who act on the spot. He's shared with me his view and experience but I guess is not easy as a lot of ppls know. Anyway, I still need time to readjust myself ... Life is full of battle so do I

Fighting for my life with only a weapon that is call hope :). Then again, who is my hope .. Myself or God. My call

到今天，只有她hold的住我。她就是我的前老板娘, Charlotte loo. 回想起来，连我的老妈都没有办法拉的住我。

That's the reason, why I put her as my set point to find someone that can hold me and I can hold her. Beside her, Ying ying 是下一位很有可能做的到。

我要的是可以hold我的人，不是她的信仰。
开始明白自己心里要的。

Mediation 给我的感觉是有一种平静和心灵沟通的方法。一种心理治疗。

Last night when my x boss char loo called me, my tears just roll down on the spot because i do miss her as a friend , as a mentor and a great sister of course.

What's she told me yesterday really makes me think again and again of why must we find a christian g.f and why i cannot find others ? Because of the faith issue or the bible say so about mixing.

I'm really wait for many years and how long must i wait ? will a christian g.f is good in term of what i been looking for or most important, is there a difference beside faith itself?

I'm sorry but i don't see difference at all so long my partner can accept me in the first place. What's I been looking is simple yet turn out so hard.

All along i been really 纠结 and don't know why this and that.

Just feel sorry if I cannot say I love her if I pass away from this world. My inner heart wish.

超崇拜kerrymuzzery的经典之作。一首一首动听的音乐使到我有一种凌静的感觉，很想带我到另一方面的自己，看看我人生的一步再一步的道路。

老友问我有没有后悔过放下屠刀。。
我说没有但是

昨晚和好友通电话，说了一大堆废话，聊了聊了就说到营营去了。她是我的心中的 set point of 找对象的条件因为她的个性和想法是我一直以来想要的。她和骆骑差不多一样都是我要的类型。

不知道什么时后爱上看书的习惯，记得吴镇真说过你把书变成你的女朋友，它会给你很多知识也会带来喜乐和伤心的感觉。

开始爱上书但是我还是无法把那习惯变成爱读圣经，为什么？ 难道我怕真相还是我不相信衪了呢？

小乌龟，你要躲还是跑？老爹在等你啊

开始坐下来，画画，写下微博和看看人生的一点一滴。回想起来还满可笑。

喜欢上那位叫骆信卉的姑娘，她就是那种我一路一来想要的老婆。

等候时，我会看看一下，久了就会纠结了

我回来了， 你在吗？

Refresh trip for sure and found assurance from him. I'm didn't have much chat with him but is the 2nd last day where I know there's always hope if we put trust.

God protected us all the way and amazing. I'm learn how people view my answers when they ask me question and how amazing is it. Knowing is not possible for me to have someone coming alone till I can put my trust back on him.

Thank u guys ! U help me to see his even is a very indirectly way

Pretty surprise recently how I react to various issue. More calm and patient to others but still subjective sometime.

Last night editing J&S ROM photos, my heart "speak" someone will find u and is was TW and GT 2014 wedding. Isn't that a blessing ? I'm still building up that web into something that I feel my client will love it because of the color and style.

To make babycam studio alive again isn't that easy as we behind others by 2 years but we also 2 years more mature than before. We copy, create , understand and stylish everything into "perfect".
2013, we back as one piece ;)

By the way, the lady sit beside me really STINK !! Please wash properly la !!

骆信卉哭了因为孟雪被牵走了。

Recently some of my friends ask me to give a try on this show and you might find someone else. Ah Wei say something I agree, 你的心结还在 so even 40 people's come, u still cannot choose them because chances they not Christian.

Anyway, I have throw in my application and I preferred my wife not local because of various reasons.

再见 2012 , Hello 2013

回想一下 2012 ...

So many things happen yet so many surprises. I'm thankful to my family member's for their support in my view and life which i really graceful to them after all these years and now is time for me to
stand up and fight for my own war.

As i approaching the 30 yrs old door, i feel is time for me to breakthrough myself without regret and 纠结 about my decision since is a deadly year as i mention before. It's going to be rush rush rush 
and fight fight fight so i want to fly again ...

Since he RRR me for the past 2 years, its' time to show the result.

Biggest wish for this year, break my marathon timing and read bible daily.

To be pure and sucessful in his eyes.

By the way, can i have someone that in my mind ? Gosh ~~"