Embark his 1st anniversary.

30/4/08

Time flies and is already 1 year since that day and that moment where i received a called from wen on 2/5/08 where i feel so shock and lost but the only thing i can do is to cry and just cry.

His death is just unexpected and till today, we don't know what is the cause nor the problem. I can only say "He felt there is no point to keep on fighting against his illness so decided to just go"but if he keep on fighting , he might live up to 40 years old but why !? is there no other ways?

Tomorrow, i will be going alone again because wen want to go at 2-3pm (maybe with his G.F) and i having a outing at 5pm so time just clash. Long time never catch up with him so i must "book" him as soon as possible ......

Nite :l

Tired :(

Have my breakfast at school. I bought myself a cup of coffee (habit that cannot change) and a doughnut and quietly sit down there doing some reflection and thought.
As the time flies, i remembered someone mention to me that i have change and more quiet than before so is it true !?. Anyway, i just take it as a concern but just now someone say when u talk to him (me) about things i like, the light will burn up again ^^". O my Gosh, this is so real !!!

Send my power point slide to semester project teacher and finish my com skill home work and now another com skill presentation add into my basket list. Somehow is very endless and it just keep going on and on until i get so tired for the past few days so i need to catch up more sleep than before .... everyday must have my 6hrs sleep before engine burn.

Thank God for everything. I'm admit i was quite angry on Monday where my project members taking things lightly and i a person will put in 100% if the task been assign to me but after a while, i remind myself that i must show God love for them. Just now after our last lesson, we decide to sit down and brain storm which project to do and finally we got it and now our tasks is to design out line assembly plus research so to ensure we are ahead of the schedule.

Just submit 1 homework and left 1 power point to submit by Friday. Still left 1 machine report to write which require me to type out 3500 words for that industry machine which i going to Google search this saturday morning and another is to design out a temporary lift project that i going to ask my teacher about it because got all the physics formula again *That's yucks*

2 days to go and it will be his 1st anniversary for Mr Ben Lee that pass away on 30/4/08. Time flies and we really miss this big brother in my life and wonder how i actually cope during that period of time beside depending on God strength only. Friday morning, i will be going down with 1 of the brother to pay a respect at mandai road .........

A good story teller? *Doubt*

Last Saturday, i went for CRS training and not very useful to me because if your heart is prepared to face all these unexpected problems/issues, you are ready to go for relief work that it. Anyway, papa shown me a "full"detail about my life which is the following:

School

1) I'm won't have a chance to go relief work because i will be going for my attachment first then Final year project in school and in between, there is only 1 week break so no chance to go back.

2) Course Manager called me and my friend to be part of his robotics team for 2010 competition so my Final Year Project somehow is confirm. (My result is poor but he choose me !?!?) * Weird*

3) Pray to God that night in his "secret place" that to consistently remind me to full throttle for this final chapter (Do my best to achieve all the "nice" result) but overall, i depend on his grace so whether i have it a not, i cannot say no :P.

Life

1) Have been struggles an issue called "BGR" and finally in 2005 (trace back the date from my journal 1), i finally give up, he shut the door and i return the key to him. Sound simple? No way !! It took me a long path before i decided to U-turn to him and that was the time i know him again. Well, i found someone that is a godly standard *bonus +1* and the list *bonus +1* but the journey seen to be tough in the being till the end yet it will train our characters .........

2) Further Study is part of the plan but when/where/what is still a mystery to me so i will start to think before i going to graduate next year but for sure, i want to work first as to gain experience and financial ready. In the mean time, i been reading some industry magazines about product design and some courses they offer ... ya .. pretty expensive.

3) Some problem that cannot be resolve yet but well .. life goes on ...

Thank bro och for his concern after i told him that i very tired over the projects that is on hand. Right now, i must beat against time for 6 projects (Deadline is 5 weeks from now) and 2 homework (submit next week).

People said "This is to train your character for the working world" and is it true? I wonder but i don't buy that sentence as all and recently my friends love to say that word again "U look stress man" and i just keep silent.

Feeling sleepy again and tomorrow is full day at school *sian* : (

Should be my last post and will update every friday. I'm shouldn't be blogging but Focus !!!
Cao ... everyone :X

3rd day in school.

Finally, i saw all my old classmates at the Lecture hall taking the same module as me and pretty excited to see them again. We have lunch together and many other interesting stuff *sweet*.

Recently, i been confuse by someone and wondering why !? but i just forgive ....

It's ok (if you know who you are), i already forgive you in the name of Jesus : )

Need a cup of Icily Milo with a plate of 奶油面包 to boast me ... doing my homework later ...

7 homework within 3 days !! Crazy world !!

Updated about my 1st day in school.

Same class with my buddy which is cool :) and 1 more classmate that we knew her also and worst part of the class is more slackers than hardworking people which is not health :X.

Today lesson is tough because we need to design an item which require at least 15 components ( example like camera , printer, clock and fan) and design/plan out the parallel design assembly workplace. The worst nightmare is i need to submit everything include report and diagram by 5 weeks from now (Crap!!).

I'm praying that my teammates know what to do for the project and a lot more ...

Back to my design now.

Beautiful vocal ....

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wnmbJzH93NU

Schooling but i still at home blogging my last post. Today lesson will start at 1pm so i decided to V and Mop the floor first before going to library and then lunch with alan (Uncle B) and the rest is at school until 4pm. I'm kina bit bored so decided to play with flo and practice some songs :X

I shall limit myself playing internet, msn so often but more to study and learning God words and my textbook *must learn to control* Ah seng always said "Don't talk talk niah, must do it one"
Every Friday update 1 blog post ? Hmm .. sound good : ).

Anything just contact my mobile and the number is 1800-Piglet-Incoming.

Just came back from soccer game and kana minor injury at my right ankle :(
Anyway, This is shocking because just now i was chatting with bro.secret and he mention something that is unexpected.

Bro Secret --> Not his real name
Jun--> Myself

This is our communication through MSN.

Bro Secret says:
this morning i had a weird wish
Jun : Flo and Nana says:
which is ?
Bro Secret says: says:
i actually wish to see u and xx together
Bro Secret says:
haha
Jun : Flo and Nana says:
HA ?
Jun : Flo and Nana says:
why ?
Bro Secret says:
hmmm dun e maybe everytime i see the both of you i sense a wave of xin4 fu2 ness there
Bro Secret says:
haha
Jun : Flo and Nana says:
wat !?!?!??!?!?!
Jun : Flo and Nana says:
GOSH !!!
Jun : Flo and Nana says:
why u think like thaT?

*Con't*

He is not the 1st person who asked me that question and possible the 3rd person. As from now, i don't want to make any comment but keep silent. Somehow people eyes are just too sharp already :X so i shall share this issue with the person he mention but don't worry, i won't tell her your name :) but short sharing .....

Last night, i just feel "sian" so decided to chio my buddy to have coffee-break. We chat a lot as usual and in front of me is a teen and his daddy discussing about photography (they holding the camera magazine that i knew) while his mom sitting down there "wondering what are they talking about" Ops :X.

This make me remembered how will it be if my mom is that woman while the guys are me and dad but hor, that teen know nothing (sorry but i wanna gossip abit) because the way he told his dad about purchasing a camera, i already know he isn't a pro in knowledge neither amateur in photography but just want to dump his dad money to buy a good camera which is wasteful. Well, i hope that teen learn something rather than waste money :).

Looking at my nana, it is 3 years old camera but still working well as before. 2 competition is on it way and is like a cycle that come every year but in my heart, i really hope to win (at least 1) so that to honor my parent for their effort (paying for my equipment) but slowly as the more i go, winning isn't that matter to me but the hardwork that i put in is what they want to see from me so do my dear papa in heaven blessed me a good skill and to bless others^.^

Having a bad bad headache again T"T. I'm wondering what going on !? Is it my long hair ? the weather? or not enough sleep? *Buay Ta han* Anyway, i find the uncle barber to cut my hair and is so refresh and neat right now.

I'm been thinking a lot of issue for the past few days and asking God question after question that some question have answers but for some, he choose to let me go through so i can grow up with his standard so let me go by faith. Nowadays, i don't feel like to blogging anymore...

我很想回去缅甸 。*Random Thought*

Finally, i have clear my stack of works (Go away :P) and now i really enjoy my holiday like nobody business. I'm cannot believe today weather is so hot yet i still can go for afternoon nap (too tired) and how i wish tomorrow will rain and allow me to sleep even longer. Later, i shall format this laptop and return to sis since it doesn't belong to me ...

大家 加油 ！！ ：）

Watching QF for U.C.L. Liverpool lost the match but never mind ... next season ... next round ...

Last night, i manage to finish the Good Friday photos which is like so fast because i didn't really need to edit a lot (Found my new formula to counter the church spotlight temperature). Currently i struggle to select nice photos for the scrappy because those photos aren't nice and lots of them didn't fufill what is scrapbook standard. Maybe is my standard too high? Hmm.... maybe ....
Just want to clear this last job ..... long time nv go cycling and running ..... :X.

Ok. Nite

I'm finish my scrapbook. Right now, i need to clear Good Friday photos before i can enjoy my rest time and tomorrrow i will know my time-table which kina screw up by NYP ><". I pray that God will put me in my friend class ..... *praying*

Some of the MB photos and pretty nice right !? Gosh, i really love slow effect esp IMG_8329 because it give me a trance energy effect.

I'm start to HATE my house surrounding because i can heard funny sounds like motorcycles wana chiong like hell rider , cat having sex which is so loud that can last for 2hrs , group of ppls chatting so loud at old folk resting area and recently don't know whose children keep crying from 6.50am onwards until it become my regular alarm clock... *argh*

Decided to read my jur jur since i cannot sleep because someone child keep shouting without a reason. As i read back from 2005 to 2007 entries, i saw God faithfulness every moment in my journey esp that day/entry (25-9-05) where i have to close the door and he lock the door for me. I'm will just share a bit since there is no longer feeling for her.

I'm used to admire this lady call "XH" when i was in sec2 and she is sec1. Don't asked me why i admire her nor anything details because i won't leak out any detail as to protect her identity but all i can say this is a long journey before i can surrender to God and also a GREAT lesson taught by God because if this lesson never happen, i won't grown up with him even more. The last time i saw her was 2005 and now is 2009 (3 years plus) but i know she is attach (leak news).

It's a longgg story so i shall stop here since it going to take hrs to share everything :X but at least i happy with what God plan for me ... really .. i happy because he give PERFECT plan. At least now i treasure papa even more than before : ) Sweet Daddy in my life.

Time up and no more funny sound !! Great !! I shall find "Zhou gong" now. Byee

I'm sick ><" and need more sleeping time before i fall down. Just now chiong a bit and this is the design but is it nice ? Anyway, i still have few more to chiong but brain wana rest so....t :P.
This is the last time i want to do scrapbook because 1 time chiong 10 pieces is CRAZY plus the misc items are expensive so most of the time i DIY and that why so tiring.

I go and take a short nap first .. nite.

Not Far From now/Future ?

Marathon or Half Marathon for Standard Chartered 09

Design my own web page

Moto GP in Sepang

Working life and is not far from now :)

Study again but it will be something i wish to learn :D

xxxxxxx. I'm not far from now but when only and right channel

Present as from now

Doing Good Friday Photos

Fix my new workplace computer

Doing the Scrapbook

Playing with Flo nowadays and love it soo much

Borrow books for leisure time

Praying for W, Myanmar, Peoples, Personal and Commitment

Footprints everywhere

xx days series

3 more days to know my timetable( Pray that i will be the same class with my friends)

3 more days to Liverpool vs Chelesea QF R2 ( 3-0 will go in SF, 3-1 will be ET before PK)

4 more days to Complete Scrapbook ( Target the impossible again)

4 more days to Complete a gift ( 90% Completed but left the words)

7 more days to School Re-open (New Challenge , New Friends and New Aims)

12 more days to CRS training 2 (Learning + Praying again)

17 more days to launch Moment story (It's not a matter of gd work but encourage ppls)

18 more days to Marina Barrage again (Fellowship and Chill)

27 more days to Farewell Lunch with Margaret Ong with the teachers (Sad to heard that)

55 more days to go Bare Foot Walk with Lo ge (Sweet walk but dislike Crocs)

55 more days to GL and S wedding (I want to use my new style aka Close up with m.bokeh)

???? more days to ..............

Last night, i went to ITE ministry (YFC) to visit and fellowship at chalet K. I'm thank to the staff (Elene, Lian Sie , Wen Xin , Eric) that taught me lot of things during that time and lot of memories in my mind whenever i see them at EH or some simple gathering .....

Watching Fast & Furious 4 and is not fantastic then Tokyo drift or part 2 but is entertaining. Going to MB for nite shooting with Rong before the actual day 1-5-09 where currently only 9 people confirm which is good liao :).

Com is 100% fix but that stupid pirated disc that i bought long ago cannot install CS 4 because disc screw up *angry*. Trying another way to get it which is either i borrow or i download.

I'm need a good sleep, good rest from now and craving for that to happen now.
Currently, i still have 2 minor problems to fix for the new com before can do a back-up clone for the future and by tonight, i ready to do the hand-on the gift ( at least 5 template is done) and feeling that i too slack already .. fast do **".

Can't wait tomorrow to come because is my rest day, thu is photography day at MB and friday photography again at church. *Tired*

I'm have a bro that is "自大" (Proud) , 自私（Selfish) , 不大方 （not generous) and how come i cannot find this character in my family member's. Sometime i really get piss off by his act and make me curious why it happen to me ? In the past, i really hate it so much but now i just remind myself that is his plan so that next time i won't learn and apply to my own family.

Shall not mention anymore but please give me back my sleeping room when u get marry.
I want back my own room and deco the way i want (Simple and Neat).

Last night, i fix my own computer with the help of my bro. DIY a computer is better than buying a whole package because you buy what you needs but when problems come in, you must know how to maintain and troubleshoot. Anyway, i like my new computer and mom can use too :). Tonight, i shall install my OS and later all the programs i need to use for my work esp Photoshop but as from now, i going out to see whether can find my teacher detail.

Papa, i hope u can open this door for me. It's been 16 years since i left the school and now is very hard to find his detail again ... just wish ....

Tired. I'm staying @ church from morning to late afternoon and is so tiring which i hope i can go home as early as i can but don't over like 2.00pm because i tend to be sleepy. Reach home around 3.30pm and watch F1 until 5.3opm where wei aka zhuge liang called me to go sim lim and here comes our battle again the shop keeper!! We did cut a bit but at least better than nothing :)

My Parts. Time for some photoshop and plugs-in.













Just now, i have a long chat with "W" over the phone again. God keep reminds me to keep praying for "W" because is not easy to overcome some issues that happening right now and i glad to be the Big mouse ears :). Shall pray for W and Myanmar kids before sleep... i'm tired

Morning

I'm can't wait to see the new season of MotoGP 2009 kickoff on April 12. All my idols will be fighting back for the Champion title. Just wana see "The Doctor" again :D











Wondering this year can i go sepang Circuit again??
25-10-09. Hmm ..... Trying ...








I'm wish to get some creamy photos again but think back, what is my purpose as a photographer? Sometime i don't really know how to answer that question but sometime i can but is always turn myself back to the same question "How can i honour God with my skill?" Over the past 3 years, i thank God because he used my pics to bless others so isn't that good to hear? Of course, i myself very keen to win an award but it always FAIL yet i still trying until now *haha* Something that i like about myself (Keep Trying)

For the past few days, i been busy doing stuff after stuff which make me feel sicking >O<. 2 months and 2 days to go before G and S wedding. U know, i asking God to guide me not because i not confident to take the photos but i changing my whole new way to capture the moment. It's going to be risky yet i must do it in order to achieve what i call "CREAMY".

Afternoon

Just now, i busy doing my work and mom piss me off again !! I'm dislike it when i busy doing my stuff which like very near deadline or take an example (She call my bro to mop the floor but after 1 hrs, he didn't do it and you kana the arrow !!) and just now also the same case happen again. Don't ever test my fire...... Don't mention already. Now i just want P.E.A.C.E.

Just finalize an "unofficial" template design for a lady friend and her birthday is coming soon so faster buy the materials and wrap it before school re-open where no time to do anymore.

Evening

Kina test my cam batteries and lens whether is it in best condition. I'm going to kovan cold storage with the ladies ( siao liao :P) but bo bian la, i wonder which woman don't like shopping ^.^? O man.
Just bo liao re-arrange my table but still messy to me ^<^"

Day 4 : Dream + Reality

Day 4 : Dream + Reality (2-4-09)

Eng and Photographer = Design ??

Ok ... nothing to write ...

Walking towards sound of music .....

My new skill taught by mom which is "How to prepare pork chop" and simply love it because is not salty , not oily but yummy :D. Personally, i don't really like cooking but bo bian because my tongue very sensitive to good/bad food at hawker centre because we been taught by my dear mommy since young (good or bad skill?).

Anyway, i going to cook that dish again on 1 special saturday. Hmm ...

Tomorrow, i will be posting all my reflection posts and somehow this photo reminds me that bro.f acting that Mr.brown show "how many birds ?". Please don't do that to me again. :D No more bird la.

Doing scrapbook template and tomorrow will start the operation. I'm will say for a 1st timer is quite challenging but also tiring so ya la ... *haha*
Need a good break after finish this and target to complete by 2 weeks later :)