9 years in TPBC and what next's ?

Will I still stick to this voice or will I run away ? Too many things unclear, uncertain till today I fully doubt myself as a believer because I stop myself reading the bible, hardly go to church due to work commitment but again, I keep asking myself "why am I holding for" since there are so many unclear issue I holding. Will there be an answer or will I forever never get it ?

Since long ago, I did mention before, if the church ppls really bother about fellowship and care for others, my first question will be "where is it?" and my second question will be " really u care?"

Afterall, we human fails lots of things and till today (I mean so many years), everyone busy with their owe life so do I really care about activity and life because without united, nothing is possible.

I'm tired with all these shit happening.

I'm want to be who am I rather than so fake up till you don't even who u are.

My words are straight, deadly but I speak of the truth of my heart and soul.

无色的我，单独走自己人生的高和地。

过个平凡人的自由自在的生活。

There's time I keep asking "why me?"

Since he know what is my desire but the answer always the same.

I'm become a robot and just go where I called to be. No longer myself but a motionless human that Pre program.

Sad isn't it ?