Rain after rain and still rain. That's just make me remembered you more because of your samurai spirit.

Recently my friend whom offended me SMS and check out how am I doing, I didn't reply because you show no respect to a human being. Fark off.

End up, he ask what he did wrong and I screw him upside down till he nothing to say. If you dont know how to speak nor keep saying sorry is just an excuses to me.

if you don't know what happen and start saying sorry is something like u don't know anything. He's have screw up this friendship and will never be the same as before.

Anyone think "suaning" is no limited, please screw yourself. Thank u

Slowly and building back where should I been heading to in life. Reading back the book called "the last generation of christianity reminds me reality truth that lots of us ( youth or adult ) don't know who Jesus is and believe Christianity like no others. How many of us fail from here ?

Now is repairing and applying period.
My prayer now is to teach me find back where I stop and where I should continue. God be with me. Amen.

Back to marathon training. It's been a long time since I stop running for recovery, busyness and mind peace.

Recent raining reminds me a lot of Ben that pass away in 2008 because we choose a song call "tears-X Japan" to remembered this childhood friend.

4 years have pass and he still live in my heart and also Marco dead (GP rider), it make me realize life is full of uncertainty and want to do as much as I can but time I realize I lost because am I working myself or for Jesus.

It's was Elene help me to find back part of the puzzle because if God send me to Jurong island and work, that mean distance and by cont work in water , it mean skill set so next is ?
Go and make disciple so that they know who is your master that love you unconditionally ?

True enough

It's time to get serious and dirt serious about between a Christian and a disciple meaning. Yesterday sermon was a wake up call to be honest.

Honestly, my heart is "crying" during the sermon because who are we?
Feel lost in time and guess only he can build back my lost zone ...

Meet up with x ITE ministry gang and I love it because everyone grow up and some even attach which is a good news. Our special guest da Jie came and we have a nice chat and really a nicest chat I have !! Told her what happen the past few years issue include my break up , back to church after leaving for a year and witness Marco dead in sepang circuit that changes my prospective in life.

Im told her I still looking for a church that I hope to adept to because i feel lost in current church (need to look for a place to fix my spiritual life plus I stop learning or things changes).

Slowly and bit by bit ...

I'm sleepy and I need a good break.
Perhaps a long vacation or send me for volunteer work might help me a lot.

This year totally cannot go for any relief trip due to career path change plus full of work on hand. If u don't work hard, where will your money come ?

I don't depend on others neither I want to because I can work and my hand is build to work.

Recently came across an Christian article talking about finding the right husband. I'm not against it but most of the point is far from possible to get such person especially in this practical world and I just want to laugh ...

As for me, I can't even like the one I prefer so don't talk about Christian ladies that I don't fit into their shoes so I should say "game over" ha ha

Rather now I focus on my life and be the man that fight for his future. People's keep saying have faith but I say how long ? yet Jesus say how much u truth me and everyone knows their answer in their heart.

My 2 cents comment

People tend to screw up when they thought they can speak to their friend like the usual past way but when they speak to the person limit of endurance and realize it, damn too late. U damn screw up and shit it, my friend.

Don't think everyone is the same neither feel people won't change. When you damn it, you got the shit.

Not sensitive enough towards other feeling is the biggest problem in communication.

Better learn before u screw up even more.

The craziness right now is I fighting life like I used to in the past but at least is clearer than before.

Another day have pass so another pressure test being and is tougher and hungrier than ever. Only CHrist can block it before is too late.

What a unknown feeling right now

I'm learn a lot from people around me regret less their age and religion behind it and I thankful because they make me realize the reality about the other side of life.

There's always a give an take in life but how many of us rob away this gift ?
Through I have fail and fall yet I climb up once again and to proof there is no fallen angels in his eye unless u choose to be like one

If God send his son to taste what is a human life then I feel is justified to say he love us that why we need to train to be like him. Of course not all want to because is the sinful central heart that fallen God plan

Set your path right in his eyes.
We once lost but yet found and his sacrifice his life for his people's.

Great motivation by him again.

Forgive others is equal to forgive yourself ( you set yourself free from sin)
and this is what Cs Lewis taught me yesterday in his book.

There's one part I cannot do is talk to the person again because of what they did to but Jesus said love your neighbor is also mean love your enemies too and if he fail to show, it means he still showing and forbidden the mercy side of Jesus Christ.

*Brilliant quote*

21 to 42.195 and now 16.8 to 42.195.
Marathon is happiness and self achievement in life so I fighting again.
Tonight register myself and train for it.

If my life is to fight, I fighting for my faith. Let's the legs shine for glory.

Plant my sadness into the soil and years later, it will grow up into a tree with happiness and full of hearts shape

Once he mention in his book, u can lose it or gain it. If a person fail to understand who he believe, he is nothing in his eyes and those put his faith in him, they gain life.
~ CS Lewis~

Whenever people say they care for you, I find it is a joke. Anyway, this is how I feel in my heart.

As I reading mere Christianity, I found lots of interesting stuff that i ever learn from others or the bible.

CS lewis convince me that Christ is real and by saying that, I now fighting my faith back by my own with Jesus helps.

Although I know we need fellowship but my question comes to if others don't even know what happen to you then what the point walking with them?
Isn't it ?

Difference people have difference view towards a problem so i think no point explaining so much since they are not close to you or don't know what happen to you right now. To make a decision, i rather close case than keep dragging without a conclusion.

There's more things i wish to shout out here but find it pointless because is going to be another cool story brother so i rather keep quiet and life goes on.