Truth

"This is passion" said bro Fraz

As i keep looking back how i started from film to digital life, there are so many changes that i couldn't imaging how i do it nor how i have such artist idea which always make me wondering all the time but this is a skill/tool that given by him and i wish to teach others just like "Zana Briski" founder of "Kids with camera" but ... not possible as from now ....

Somehow, i wish to see you right now ... i miss u so much ....

Lost Memories

Trying out new program and new tools. I'm love this program because it allow me to publish at website without register the program or their product which is awesome. So fast, 2008 is coming to the end and what will it be in 2009 ? I have my plans but what God plans for me ? *No idea*.

Just came back from pasir ris beach. I'm found a nice spot where i can sit down there without people "disturb" me ..... I told God some issue that happening during 2008 ..... A lot a lot .......
Ok, i need to sleep liao ... too tired ... *cao*

Yesterday, i went to see a doctor for my leg and thank God that the injury isn't serious so by next Monday, i should be able to resume all my fitness exercise.

Last night, rong send me all the photos that have me inside the SSH and only 2 of them are v.nice so decided to do some editing plus the video of how i climb into the house which is really FUNNY !!! *Thks for recording*.

Just finish southen cross project with GL cell members. I'm pretty enjoy myself by giving the mainland tourist peoples with the package contain the bible and some other useful infomation, even thought some of them rejected but i guess God is working in their heart :D. After that, we went to MS for lunch, have fellowship. It's so funny when they start the topic of "Which star is handsome/beautiful ... I say "钟楚红" because she is beautiful ... *story con't*

钟楚红 and 周润发 are my fav in the 80's.

Christmas day. For some people is celebration but for me, i have my most boring Christmas day for this year because i go home after church service and no interesting places for me to visit so decided to go home after that. Although got people chio me to go "E & A" house with the rest but i guess, i not keen to go too so still the same decision "Go Home and Sleep". *What a boring life*

Maybe i have a weird hobby and that why i cannot "click" to some people. How weird? I love to go abandoned houses to do my photography so is it weird? I'm believe a lot of us don't dare to explore such location beside pro.photographers who is very "garang" and i one of them :D. I guess this is me and myself with my wido idea in life. This is the shot from that day in SSH house. Thks R and A fr tapping along.

Tired yet happy about yesterday trip in SSH and HPV. I'm must say SSH is a very challenging place because they lock up all the entrance to prevent people going in but it doesn't work for us as we found a hole that can leak us into this huge mansion and many thank to "R" for recording down a video to proof our ninja skill did work by squeeze into this damn small hole and we look like "貞子" coming out from the television ... *Gosh*.

The whole building is covered with 90% of greenish color which really freak us out but we dare to explore room by room so if you wondering how bad it is, 2 photo proof everything and is non-edited for your information. *Photo Copyright by A.P.K.L* *Don't ask me the location* * Both photos is me not spirit*

My time, My world





















Let's go VEG















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Awaiting

Apart or love















My only shelter

Within a week, i have bring nana and nanami 2 times to enjoy the breezing feeling at pasir ris park and is awesome whenever i step into the beach even thought is very dirty (must confess) yet is relaxing like playing an instrument at the place.

Last Friday, i was looking @ people playing the kite and i start to remember about the kids in Myanmar which i really misses my time over there and praying that papa will send me back again. After that, i met up a friend who needs my ears becoz.....
Overall, i felt i didn't provide much help for the person but at least i know papa is there to be with me and train me how to deal with difference kinds of problem.

Sunday morning, D.W.W.X is been baptism and we are very happy for him but right now, i waiting for his “xi 9” which I guess  about 3 years – 4 years later (age catching up dude).

Evening time, I wanted to ride to changi area but looking @ the time is about 5.15pm which is a very bad timing so half way, make a U-turn and decided to go P.R.P again. It’s a beautiful moment that I treasure the most because I can spot his footprints!!

Receive a past client mail for my face book account and can’t remember who he is because is like 3 years ago when I still doing my mini business …but I happy he like my photo :)

Hi Kevin,

Thanks for adding. Hope you still remember me, back then from Daiforum, I still enjoy the stuff (CDs and posters) you sold me, Ayumi Hamasaki for life :) And it was a pleasure to do business with you.
How's life treating you? I'm going to browse your photos for a bit; I just love photos's and all around them.

Have a nice holidays,
Frantisek "Patrician" Janak

Later, i think i going to bring nana out to the beach area since my right leg is 90% recover but still can feel the painful feeling but thank for praying (if you did). Ahh, i just love electronic dance music when i really need to "boast" my mind for ideas, projects and photo editing. Just now, i have throw away about 3kg of papers and next week bringing over 30 titles of movies to cash converter for money since we no longer watch them nor want to keep dust at my shelter too. *Yucks, i hate dust*

I'm kind been hook by this drama "溏心风暴之家好月圆". It's not like "真情" but it just make u want to find out next after next although is a family show but it really good until i one day "chiong" 5 ep *Thank sis for the disc* .. Tonight should be holding flo to master the "You and Me" song and next one will be my fav song "Enrai" by D.A.I......

Anything to say abt this yr deco? Yeah man, you bet it. I'm must say the deco are "suz" and cannot believe by myself that each year is getting bad to worst so what next? Worst to cannot make it? Perhaps i have set myself a personal world record for yesterday shooting because i walk less than 100 steps from the station, i give up for the shoot and U turn, go home. What day for me.

I'm just can't wait next Tuesday to come because rong and myself will be going to A.houses @ 2 difference location which i cannot mention due to security issue but not to worry, we will be back in one piece. *Promise*

This is my lastest shot plus some editing and there are more but i guess, i want to keep it as a secret for my "winding path" photobook. *Cao*

i having a bad injury at my right feet so need more rest as from now. Just came back from photography tour around in singapore and snap a lot of nice shot plus spot some new area around little india and town area. I don't think i want to upload all my photo to blog *lazy* ....

2 movies i wish to watch right now *Only available in USA*. What to do ??




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Just finish reading the book about "Wedding album Design and Sales". They have some great design and layout which is good for a memorable wedding photo album and just now having breakfast with dad and he shared with me about yesterday wedding he attend. He told me how the photographer snap and his equipment which is not very pro and etc etc ... *I keep laughing*.

It's always lies on the PHOTOGRAPHER not the EQUIPMENT and people tend to mislead by the words and always point finger to their camera which why you buy so x in the first place yet you don't know the basic concept of a pro camera ?

Nana is faulty again and pretty scare when it announced "Sorry, my service end here". Don't until i buy a new camera .... T.T"

Talking about next year wedding, i have selected 2 finest music that will be used in their wedding slide show .... I'm wish to be the main photograper but no chance and i miss my golden one for Da Jie aka Elene one T_T. Hope God will provide for me ... in the near future ...

Attach with flo almost the whole Saturday afternoon but the feeling is awesome when myself, flo and God is inside the room worshiping him with songs that i mastered and many thank to bro T for his wiliness, time + effort to teach me. If not, who will come and teach me!

Maybe I should just go for a visit. Just now, I went into the service room and have a short chat with sis Shirley and was surprise she knew I not in any cell group for a very long time so I assume bro guo liang told her about it but because of their sincerely, i decided to go for a visit soon. After service, most of us went to coffee shop for fellowship and everyone start to ask me about “How your run?” “Wa, you very crazy man 42km leh” and forgot who commented by saying “Siao lan go one” *LOL*. Well, i don’t know why this year so many people took parts this event but at least most of the people completed the race :). Slowly, I went to BP with bro T and also visit wen at his working place and told him about my study condition and more …ya … my very close friend in life ….

Ok …. Sleep liao .. tomorrow orchard road photography ..here I come …..

1 more .. COOL DUDE.

Last paper for the day and close shop for 2 weeks before school re-open in mid December. Yesterday, i just called my ITE teacher Mr W.x.x because me and some friends plan to go back and visit them but sad to say becoz next week is holiday so no teachers will be in school @ all so quite disappointed. Another thing he told me that he currently on leave becoz his mom just pass away *Sorry to heard that* but i believe his mom is with Jesus right now :).

I wish i already die. Sorry to say such irresponsible words but i have my own reasons.
Maybe i now facing depression illness or perhaps i don't know what going on in my life but is very lost, very unknown what's next ? and regret after regret with things that i facing.

How long to go? Nobody knows but time will tell everything...............

Just now chat with my teacher about her timing for the SC marathon and guess what, she took 4hr 51Min's and 17 secs to completed the race. I'm must train harder in order to get such timing but next year, i confirm going for 21km since yong wana me to be his pacer.

1 more paper which is on Thursday and Friday sending Mr seng to airport for his oversea work which make me wonder when will be our next coffee session? Maybe someone beside us knows about it ^^. All the best dude. *Get me some power Gel !!!*

Maybe this weekend, i want to go town area to take photograph. It's been a long time since i go there and now is christmas period so the timing is perfect. Another news is about my past projects that i delay will be all cancel and combine into one call "The winding path". More info coming up.
Study time ..*cao*

Damn happy right now. I'm manage to see my photo and is like SO FAST !! Less than a day, i got to see my photo plus my timing of 6:31:28 which is slightly improve compare to last year 6:52:16 timing. Love it !!!

I'm tired after the race and went back home with the shirt, the medal and the tag. To be honest, this is not my best race ever for such event because i didn't train much so next year, i must push it to my limit but before that, please clear my IPPT first *Sucks*.

Dad complain again saying "why you cut yr hair so short?" and personally i don't like to keep my hair long because of hygiene reason and my look, o well .. i know it going to be ugly with my short hair but i don't really care how people look @ me


Mr. Muttley is very proud with the medal that i achieve.
















Every race paid a price, i now suffer some muscles cramp plus possible old injury strike back.

Time to sleep. Tomorrow is marathon and taking part in 42km again but this year will be a bit tough due to lack of training and stress level in school work. Anyway, my number tag is so nice "17171" and sound like "brotherhood" meaning .. i like it.
















Orange aka my asics shoes will be serving it last service for me because the shoes base is about to spoil and time to change a new pair but it did serve me well so go for asics shoes.

















I'm decided to paste Mr. Muttley @ my shoes because Mr Seng cannot join me. This is not act cute but to encourage me to keep on running and finish it.





















Well. I'm already know nobody will come so i decided not to bring my phone along and wish that someone will take photo for me yet disappointed by the replies....
Anyway, i go and sleep liao. Nite

I'm very disappointed with myself for today 2 killer's paper because i believe non of them will pass so it means, i going to "kill" myself very soon. If anyone ask me about my result, can u all kindly spare me even thought my face doesn't have any expression yet my heart is very hurting.

Give me a break. Have been suffering for almost 2 years in poly without knowing who am i actually
Why must i torque myself like that ? Is this all i have in the end of the day?

I'm just wake up after a good 4hrs rest and later 9am will be my 1st nightmare paper. Today study from 8am onwards and in between got a lab test which i make a big mistake and cost me to lose mark *sucks* Gosh, why i didn't change the code name and if i did, i have score full mark liao.

Pretty amaze by this music that give me a peace heart and i been repeating it for more than 100 times *no joke* and it still works. I pray to God and say "Papa, your will be done" because this is my final chance and that it, close case.

Some people think is waste time if u didn't get yr dip in the end of the day but i told them that this is life journey, there is down and there is up so no one knows the future. U can be promoted to a CEO today but tomorrow u face an fatal accident ...... Time up. Got to go back and study ..cao

1.00am !!

3 news to shout out.

1) I'm just receive pastor Michael (Myanmar) e-mail and i pray God will open the door for me to visit/help them in 2009. I will like to share what he write for me and please pray along with me.

Dear bro.Kevin
Sweet December greeting to you!
How are you and when will you come back to Yangon,Myanmar.
thk. u for your love for Myanmar.please remember us in your prayer and
try to participate in Tender Love Ministry as much as you can.
May your christmas be filled with Joy and blessings more than
before.hope to hear your kind reply soon
Serving His children with you in Myanmar
Always with Love and prayes
Michael

2) I'm decided to pick up the role as sunday school teacher. Have been thinking for a long time and God re-assure my decision so follow the faith. *Still learning*

3) IYF(International Youth Fellowship) just send me an application form for their volunteer workshop but i cannot go because is my common test week so i got to give a miss this time. :(
I really hope to go and learn something from them .. fellowship, pray , games ..

Jus love this music keep on repeating inside the study room and feel so relax right now. *The one @ my blog now*

Just chat with "T" 2 days ago and we have our fruitful chat although we always bump each other @ blk P before is like a 1min's chat only *ops* so i decided to ask him about his school work and also the ministry he involve in but sad to say, he decided to leave because of some unhappiness issues in the ministry so i ask him why and reasons is ........ *con't*

I'm must agree 1 of his reason is because this issue happen to me before when this particular brother who is quite annoying and love to "zi siao" people which i can understand this maybe fun BUT please set a limit because not everybody like it. "Tai Guo fen le". I don't want to mention who is it neither where it happen because 1 words can leak out the person identity and the ministry.

Maybe 1 of my wish inside the "JurJur" will come true. Recently, i just receive an update newsletter from corrinne may that she might held a concert in Singapore but depend on her schedule first and who want to go if there is one? I can only pray that it will happen and just bought this album that produced by her husband. *Very cooling music*

Time up, i got to go back school for my final quiz plus study until library close. *Cao*