Hopefully nobody will spoil my mood for this week because i manage to get 2 tickets to go for a mini concert by Corrinne May in a Catholic church just opp my house *Thank papa*.

生气 - 是拿别人做错的事来惩罚自己

so why must i angry with others and curse myself with the burden. Isn't that stupid?

Thank God for fraz, wei , wen because whenever i need to flare my unhappy moment, they are the one who will beside me and listen to what i want to share about. *Thank guys*

Sometime, i just wish to leave behind everything and bring my camera bag and walk around the countries that i want to visit. Perhaps, i have too used to be alone most of the time so whenever i do, i will prefer to be solo than with someone else unless the person know me very well . . . . . . .

Back in office.

Time files and i already in this company for 4 months+ and what i have achieve --> "Priceless".
There are so many things i wish to share but think back, it is impoosible since there are limited space for blogging plus too many words means you very draggy. Sucks feeling.

Doing my 1st own photography book and pretty excited what is the feeling ... gd .. bad ?
December will know ...

Doing my 2nd project "Awareness" and taught me lesson that i cannot even dare to imaging why some people willing to betray themselves for something only short term. As the more i look at this project, i feel there are so many things i don't want to see it anymore because of disappointment and i rather be happy, earn my salary and peruse my dream/career.

Behind the project is about ~~

What is love to them ? What is family guide? What are they thinking right now ?

This is what i want to share through photo and this is reality.

Trailer 2 coming soon ... more details and more tears ? I guess?

Workplace taught me lessons about life as a person , as colleague and also a ungraceful person.

I'm spend a bit of time looking at myself why i have change so much compare to the past and there are many answers to trace yet in the end, it is still yourself choose the destiny.
As i was sharing some unhappy moment with Jonathan, he taught me this sentence.

"Don't compare with others because the more you compare, the more miserable you are."

I'm wish to go back to the beach and face Jesus again but i don't dare to do it because my heart has harden towards him. Sometime, i just wish someone will bring me back there ...

I'm dare to say my faith shaken badly since last year onwards and only trust a few people but the rest is simply not in my list.

Wondering why people like to listen to Linkin Park songs. Is it because they damn cool that make you high or their songs shout like nobody business?

I'm like their songs is because they speak about what you are unhappy about and "fa xia" into the song and sing it. Seriously, this is what i went through during Feb to April this year where i seriously need help and some did come in and help me which i really thankful for their support.

On the other hands, i choose to leave YA level because i really cannot stand anymore about the mess plus the break up even trigger me more to leave so i leave was a wise choice even though i didn't really seek for advice because i always get back the same answer so no point.

In the end, i happier than before because i didn't get to see them so often and slowly my fire will turn into ice plus what they hurt me is deeper than what my brother hurt me during my childhood days.

Please don't mess with me again esp the one who TALK about ME.

I'm don't wish to talk much about myself because i don't feel is a needs for others to know after all and people trying to think they know me very well which is bullshit and maybe they should shut up their mouth and drink more water *ha*

The other side of me !? I don't wish that to happen but someone trigger it since January.

Long time didn't update the blog and also don't feel like doing it since i busy with my stuff.
Life changes dramatically since been working @ the company for the past 3 months and don't think i will stay long if this kind of situation keep happening.

I'm guess this is part of life as how to handle people, know what shit i dealing and even a place for me to release my anger towards some issue that i unhappy at but overall, this is somewhere i start building my milestone ...

Finally, i have officially pull out from the YA family's because of some unhappiness issues and many more that i don't wish to mention as people say "You can forgive but you cannot forget" which is true to me.

At least now i now happily by myself and the things i doing so better ...

Learn a great sentence by a captain

U can make things happen

U can look things happen

and U can also can don't know what the hell things happen

Which type of person u want to be in life.