JR quote "Let it be now is time to craft my future and career" and "our poly 光辉岁月"

I'm keep smiling because this is what i going to focus at for the next few years before going back to school if this is God will and secondly, i going to miss my friends and some lecturers in my school which something i treausre the most during my hardtime where we lift up each other :)

I won't want to share much about my IAP as i feel messy and i don't like unclear instruction so let me fight for some more days before making any comment. The worst part is i need to work on Saturday which like "my ubin trip is cancel".

Shall listen beyond songs now *wow wow*

Just came back from a short trip. Thank God for the small break from Singapore where i feel so "buzz" sometime and also to the bros and sis for those laughter and crap joke that almost qualified for the media corp acting class.

During the trip, i think a lot , eat a lot and walk a lot. Well, i did broke down a bit when i heard the song " When the day i let you go" by kavin hoo because this piano music make me think back some unhappiness issue which i know God want to make it happen so that we can learn who is he in our life and who is the one control everything. Anyway, i feel i have change in my character which i don't know whether is it true but somehow i look at issue is no longer so simple but rather think even deeper for others before myself so is it good ?

Haiz .. i receive bad news on friday abt "xxx xxx jump down xxx" which is a bit shocking but is it a solution for that ? I don't know why people want to go that way ... really don't understand ....

Ok. I will pray for him and his family .....

WX said : Our Adventurous Bro

OCH said : caught him who risk his life to take all the good shots. haha

I'm like this photo because it speak about me as a person, as my character and most important my passion in photography and look about life in a different view from others people. Anyway, i receive a lot of "complain" by the brothers because i always challenge to dangerous area just to take good photo and how to stop me?

2 days to go :(

I'm just let it be since yesterday the Mr.k say something damn nasty like "Are u a Singaporean?"and add on another " Have you finish NS?".
It's personal attack but i just don't bother anymore because he is just another bastard i going to face in my working life so i just hack care and don't give a damn. I'm remind myself that "i won't say such to my students if i a teacher in the future because you show no respect to a human".

As far as i know, i will know where am i going on wednesday :D

Now, i jsut take good photo and of course ... good photo

Looking at Cheryl for the past few days, i was wondering how this little "gal" grown up with me for the past few month where i first purchase her from someone else. I'm wish to continue those undone projects but because of my time and study, i have to link it up everything and form a story telling which is much better than stand alone.

1 great example is project Cheryl combine with project 16 years old. Reason is both are human, able to share even more in my photo and most important is "What is your thinking when you are 16 year's old?" Isn't that wonderful to ask that even you now 20's , 30's or 50's.

That time, i thinking of going to poly which dream come true after 8years later so what yours?

I'm hope people understand why sometime i have to cancel the project because all these project need time to take photo, edit, think about the story flow so it is not easy to do it after all.

Ok. I have my presentation now. Byee

Drop those undone personal projects since i don't see there is any direction from now so drop it.
Recently, i reading a Chinese novel book and impress by the way how the author express a 16 years old whom going to die soon due to cancer and this given me an idea of how i think when i was 16 year's old.

That year, i want to have my 1st girlfriend, experience working life , career as a business man and more .... so what is your dream during that year, that period of time ?

It's going to be exciting base on the theme itself and currently looking for a suitable music :D.

Project --> 16 year's old dream (2011)

Next Tuesday, i will format my computer and install all the latest updated program that i need to learn for the next 1 year and since Monday will be my presentation, i going to say GOODBYE TO MY SCHOOL and HELLO to WORKPLACE.

FTT @ 12-12-09 and hope i can pass so i can quickly go to school and register myself ...

I feel everything will be in a rush mode but really no time to think twice from now since i going to start working soon so who care .... rush mode ....

Complete Modern Warfare 2 and really praise the people's who work so hard for this game and truly is a masterpiece i ever seen for a FPS game :)

Looking at Cheryl for the past few days and this little "gal" have grown up with me for almost 4 month since i bought it back home. Last Saturday trip to changi boardwalk was awesome because it been a while for me to go for some photography trip just to relax myself and this little "gal" will just follow me inside my bag :).

Thanks to WX and CH for org this event because is what i need it now and good to relax myself too.

My days in NYP is 3 days only :(

Tomorrow bring my Cheryl out :)

By the way, Cheryl is my Canon 50D so don't mistaken is a lady and beside that, i don't have time to consider anyone until the door is open again but confirm not for the next 2 years.

*Piss off in the lab*

The student that teacher allow him to used the lab mess up my area and bloody messy >_<"

He "spoil" the suction cup and didn't fit it back + run away without info anyone because i already went for lunch and when i come back and spotted that, that really bloody piss me off and personally i dislike dishonest people !!!!

Lucky, i know how to fit it back .....

Bump into quite a lot of friends recently and1 like 4 years already after i ORD from army.

Sat spot Hui Wing at white sand after having lunch at vivo with pris and sis *The foods is gd :)*

Monday spot Gary aka Fat at NYP with his girlfriend (Former NYP student in Media & Design) and they just sign the paper at HDB for built to buy at sengkang. I'm going to receive my 1st red bomb from my secondary friend and so happy for him and the wedding will be 2012 (Confirm) but in the mean time, the company sponsor him to SIM for study *Shiok man*

Yesterday spot Zhong Hua at houang point while i at the bus stop. He is my sgt in my army day but a very cute person who like classics song ... *ha ha*

Bad news also coming in and all boy girl relationship which kinda make me feel so shit.

David broke up with SJ after "ren" from her all those nonsense from SJ which i kinda of expected because SJ is those typical type where easy get angry and give you nonsense if you make her angry. I ask myself some important questions "Why go for this relationship?" and "If you know she is those type, why you still go for it in the first place?".

WL g.f broke up with him before they about to go for ROM which is quite shocking to me but i can only say "There is nothing you can do" + "She bastard you because she found someone better".

After listening to all these, i learn even more about " What is Confirm?"

"If you are not sure about the person character, please don't give a damn chance and do a thick research first before accept it.

Please don't say "try try" or "take a risk" because i don't think anyone want to go for that because in the end, you are hurting others not yourself.

"The problem is not how you forgive that person but is how to forget the hurt" -- Jerry aka mo bin

Having tea break with Jerry and he commented something that i realize is either you do it or you don't towards the issue because whatever the damage is been made, you cannot cover the scar but only let it heal by itself. How long? That depend on how the damage been made?

Personally i feel ........... *con't*

Anyway, i seeking God advice to see which is the best choice for me and if this is God will, i will go and leave behind everything ....

Pray while seeking ....

I'm love library.

The reason is i can borrow those DVD/Audio disc since 1-7-09 where in the past only special membership can borrow but now i also able to borrow 2 per card :D.

Borrow national geographic , discovery channel ......

Simply love it.

This song rock my lab room for the whole day. 3 big reasons behind

1) My favorite J pop group band

2) The song is super rock and extreme nice

3) One of the best anime i watch from 2008-2009 and the author of Ranma 1/2 if you happen to know

I'm know i have to handle the media but is a matter of time only. 2 people know about it but i just be bother anymore since is a waste of time to find out more and i find it crap if people want to gossip around which make themselves a fool.

I'm planning for my future of where to kick off and where to find sponsorship if there is any chance for me to excel in some industry level but someone mention to me that i should start working than study right now because experience is 50/50 needed but as for paper, it just help you to go management level and full stop.

Start planning a lot of things especially when dad going to retired in 2 years time and brother going to marry in less than 3 months time, the household will be the 1st problem i going to face beside returning the CPF money every month after i grad from poly so financial will be a major issue for me to consider right now.

My boss is happy for the prograss and finally he say something nice ....

I know my main focus is keep research and keep trying out new stuff

Piang ah .. Is that what he really want /

Haiz ....

I sleepy mood ...

Lost my moody sleep for the past few days ...

No mood

After finish reading "Sis X" e-mail and it let me reflect a lot of issues that can help me to find out what is the problem about myself and how come i find back the assurance again. Sometime, i keep asking papa a question " Is there any other ways?" and it make me feel sad when i look back the incident because is very complicated and only him can answer me .......

I want to take a long break from there and somewhere where i can take a break ... ya .. seriously...
Papa, please bring me along okie ....

November is like so happening to me

22 days to go --> Malacca trip with CH, TM, TT , MH and 1 friend.

21 days to go --> End of FYP ( Finally)

9 days to go --> Photography trip

9 days to go --> Fong Ling and Sharon Store

9 days to go --> Jamming part 3

2 day to go --> Steamboat

1 day to go --> Dinner with alan

? day to go --> Chiong my ppt, report

Date Grand Prix (Circuit)
April 11th* Qatar (Losail)
April 25th Japan (Motegi)
May 2nd Spain (Jerez)
May 23rd France (Le Mans)
June 6th Italy (Mugello)
June 20th Great Britain (Silverstone)
June 26th** Netherlands (Assen)
July 4th Catalunya (Catalunya)
July 18th Germany (Sachsenring)
July 25th*** United States (Laguna Seca)
August 22nd Czech Republic (Brno)
August 29th Indianapolis (Indianapolis)
September 5th San Marino & Riviera di Rimini (Misano)
September 19th Hungary (Balatonring)
October 10th Malaysia (Sepang)
October 17th Australia (Phillip Island)
October 31st Portugal (Estoril)
November 7th Valencia (Ricardo Tormo Valencia)

Reserve Circuit: Motorland Aragon Circuit

I want to go GP again :X

Updating my schedule for the month of November and December. I'm must say is fully booked.

Counting down my days to own back my little comfortable bedroom which i been looking forwards for the past few years and waiting for my FYP to be done, then maintenance for my "Freedom aka AMD 64bits" computer before IAP being in December which kinda of looking forwards to it.

Just finish chatting with mommy and what she say "Old Cow eat grass"
i know the meaning and true enough ....experience win over knowledge :)

Just feel bored and decide to type in a stupid short fantasy story. No link at all .... LOL ...

Battle with the witch alone has been a major problem for the prince because it is impossible to keep on fight while the princess don't help him nor heal him. He feel so tired and frustrated until he decide to run back and wait for old knight to help him and fight together to save the princess. Even thought he know that the princess weakness point is always want instant result from them which kinda feel she is so deceive by the witch words.

The witch is very happy because she won the battle BUT it just a beinging only. When the old knight heard the story from the prince how the princess disconnect with the prince is not only caught off-guard but also very angry why the princess keep listening to the witch because the old knight see the value of the prince from his eyes but the princess don't and want her ways.

The old knight haven't burst out his fire yet as he is watching very closely, sneaky and preparing his own weapon yet and only the prince can tell by his action because he believe justice will be done soon but he will burst the fire only when the time is up but problem lies to the princess whom DON'T trust the old knight nor the prince so the 2 men think and decide God deal with the princess while they do their homework ......

The story will only Continue depending on whether the princess want to wake up for her fairly tale dream.

11.27pm

I'm decided to type in what i feel right now since i waiting for the big match at 12am tomorrow.

Angry? Frustrated? Silent? and what next? Shout out ? DON'T BE STUPID LA !!

Well, i want to thank my church brothers because they know i very tired already because of my stupid school work , x & x issue , family , career and others problem yet they choose to keep me in their prayer book which i own them a million thanks for that. Thank you for knowing what kinds of SHIT i facing right now and please treat me an ice-cream after my FYP is done :)

Just finish chatting with sis "X" and is like long time never catch up with her so we chat a bit and after the whole conversation that last 20mins and glad she understand what i told her. I'm also told her that i don't bother how people look at me right now because they don't know the whole story but i feel this is none of your business and if you really concern, then please pray for me not gossip around.

After that incident, i remembered God reminds me "TIME is your winning strategy" which i feel doubt and ask myself "Why must be time? not the heart? not the eyes BUT time?" but after yesterday night, the truth finally come out which is no doubt after all because i know it long ago yet i choose to kept silent.

• All along, that pair of innocent eyes is blindfolded and keep assuming is open yet isn't, so only time will tell the person that you all along are blindfolded.

• Heart wasn't the thing that the eyes is looking at but see the overall package which is wrong in the being. Is Heart important or package important? Time will tell the eyes.

• It's time to wake up and NOT keep on following instruction which lead to self destruction.
  

It's very "chim" to understand but this is my indirect way to speak out how i feel last night.

2.55am

Running nose and still awake because i need to finish download this file before i can do for tomorrow tasks. Anyway, i was a bit bored so decided to listen to simple plan songs which i don't know why but at least i enjoying some rockish music.....

1.54am

I'm still not sleeping yet because i just finish chatting with mommy and right now i want to blog which i want to do it now.

First of all, i want to thank 3 person. My mommy , My Die Hard Buddy , My Jie Mei.

Second, i have a nice time catch up with wen after Friday event. I'm cannot believe we know each other for more than 15 years which is amazing how we stay contact until today and truly he is my best buddy. I told him all the unhappiness that i face for the past few month which is damn crazy till i hate to say that again and AGAIN but at least some issue is settle so let just don't bother it anymore.

Third, i want to thank mommy for her effort to listen to me and i love you :).

Lastly, i feel like going back to Thailand :X

Nothing good about my FYP because is really sucks ....

Have a nice dinner with my "jie mei"at city link instant of downtown east because i really very hungry so we decide to change the location. I think our last catch up is like 1 year ago :X but i really enjoy the time and we update each other about life issue ... ya .... thank for her view and guide.