Zhao

Going off now .. Take Care ... Everyone ...

Late night, i still doing my final re-search and also chatting with someone about the problem. Anyway, i hope everything will be fine because the Lord is with us until the end of the day.

Finally, i have written down all the important point when i reach Myanmar. Excited? Of course, i been praying for a "call back" from papa since ever i came back from thailand because this verse have always encourage me to go back.

Matthew 19:14 (NIV)
Jesus said, "Let the little children come to me, and do not hinder them, for the kingdom of heaven belongs to such as these."

Project "When LoveTakes You In" aka "A heart for them 2" is finally on it way. More info coming soon ...

Went to eat sushi with mom and sis @ white sand this afternoon and do a lot of things after that.
I just realize i haven't bought the color pencils because not enough so myself and mom went to Elias mall to get some and ready to pack the items into my bag by tonight. When i reach there, i pick up about 7 boxes of crayon and 5 boxes of color pencil and place it at the counter. The boss asked me

Boss: Xiao di, you buy so many is for what purpose? Give teacher?
Kevin: O, is for the kids in Myanmar as i doing relief work
Boss: Wa, You are a nice guy leh.
Mom: Hey boss si, sell a bit cheaper la !! Charity
Boss: Ok la .. sell u 1 bucks per 1 box of color pencil instant of 1.20
Kevin: *hehe*

Another boss come in who is selling children clothing happen to heard our conversation

Boss2: Hey boi, why not you take some of my children clothes (brand new) and give it to them
Kevin: O, that will be very good.
Boss2: Aiya, Singaporean children so fortune liao, this type of clothing .. they won't wear de la ...
Kevin: *O, so true hor*

Thank God for the blessing. Amen

Finally, i have the time to blog about my trip preparation. Been a planner isn't an easy task cum one more logistic role make me more headache for the past few days as to ensure everything run smooth, items to buy and bring along plus what is our back-up plan if things screw up but overall is doing for the Lord so the sweat and pain is just part of life.
















Yesterday i was carrying this "mainland" bag and everyone looking @ me "Who the hell is he>?" I'm personally don't bother and walk through the train station gate and expected, i been stop by the security, and told me to open up the bag. I'm have to explain why i bring so much toys -_-|| and i think about my appearance, i really have a "terrorist" look wearing a black standard charted 42km black T-shirt*Omg* and no wonder elene jie say i have a instructor look *Well..*

Have my meeting with the team to slot out all the stuff and etc. We end the meeting at 5.30pm and took the rush hour train home but thank God that i manage to find a good spot to walk in. After that, i met up with "W" for dinner at Kopitiam.
We walk around the area and story con't ...

Finally Olympics is over and which events is my favourite? Quite a lot actually and day time mommy don't watch sport channel (cable vision) so i the one who watch it almost every events and back to the topic, i like running (all running events) and swimming because is exciting ... others ... erm .. well ... depend .. cycling also nice with all the power gears and body.

Big headache right now. Got to remember 70% formula and how to de-stress myself?
Photos edit.

I'm find it so useful and always can perform when someone pressure me XD *kidding* but i just realize i didn't finish my Australia album when i came back in 2006 and is like 2 yrs plus already and how come i forgot already? Anyway, i pick out one and do editing. Is it nice?










My brain is clear. Back to study table.

My YEP gang. Old photos and when will be our next meeting?

AHM 2008. I'm not going not because i don't want to but tomorrow got my last exam paper and partly i need to save up for my trip too even thought sister sponsor 100% for my Myanmar Relief work but i might have 1 student exchange trip which is end of September (if i been selected) so must save a bit PLUS die die my clear my stupid IPPT *Last minutes calling*. It's very troublesome if you didn't clear it so must train my pull up asap ..... gota using my PTI demon training Manuel now.

Just now, Shao pass me sakae sushi voucher for helping his sisters company taking the D and D few months ago and i don't really deserve it as i felt the photos isn't very nice after all so a bit "pai say" to accept the voucher. Anyway, i like to eat Japanese foods esp the curry noodles and no wonder daddy keep comment that if i born in japan, it will be good for me as everyday can eat curry noodles.
What should i do with the voucher ? Why not bring mommy to enjoy the foods since White sand got the outlet and be prepare for her "ni ni na na" comment again // hahaha.

Waiting for my 2 Christian books to come before i depart from Singapore.

Update 1 : Crazy over the 3 "golden" cards
















If my brother pass me his library card, i going to be over joy and no wonder some people's really wonder can i really read finish all the books? I don't really borrow all books but more magazine like "Cycling, Popular Photography , I photo, Newsweek , Computer Arts , Cooking and etc" As for books, it really depend on which type i really going for but nowadays i like to read Chinese books... O, i can borrow 12 books with my 3 "golden" cards .. i like to read books but not text books ... *bad*
It's time to IMPROVE my english grammer !!! ... so bad .. yucks ...

Update 2 : Software and is good











Checking what is the latest editing and correction software. Recently came across some great plug-in like onepro, tiffen dfx and etc but my new computer not ready yet so i must use "toshi" to do it first. By the way, i don't buy branded desktop com but i do it myself (DIY) as i really demand my hardware and performance. I can spend little yet performance is 2x better than whole system sale because of some factors ...

I'm finally using Lightroom 2 (upgrade from version 1) and simply awesome for quick editing and correction but i still like photoshop for some funky layers yet "toshi" cannot "ta han" CS 2 and not even CS 1 lor *haiz* so skill drop again.

Update 3 : Rain Rain and yet i still walk











Trip meeting from 12.30pm to 4.00pm and is finally is over. I'm went to beach road to look for an "item" for someone as her birthday is coming *secret* and possible not available in singapore after asking xiao mei who have it so i decided to change my plan again ... haha ..

From there, i walk from Beach road to City Hall even thought it isn't rain very heavily but i enjoy my journey down the road because is cooling plus looking at how people re-act under the rain. If my "Nana" is with me, i going to capture some unique shots.

Update 4 : The journey doesn't end here ....

This week i have great lesson with God despite having some struggles with my exam papers. I want to share here but think for a while, i just let those people who receive my weekly update to read it ba ... like xiang, lo ge and elene ... the rest who want to know can ask me but i must see who is it ..ya.. i take it very seriously as to avoid gossip and misunderstanding.

Q post 2

4 days of study before final paper. Quite a lot of things to do before/after the exam like this Saturday is team meeting 2, plan for simple games for the children's , gifts plus many more.
Well, Tuesday and Wednesday papers are simply too hard to handle and only God holds the answer for me so please don't ask me how is it *Thanks*.

Day after i reach Singapore , i got to sleep early because my classmate chio me to sentosa !! Happy la because can relax a bit before i go for my IPPT test which i plan to book on 2 weeks of September and target to get a silver (200 bucks reward). Before i depart from Singapore, i will finish most of my left over jobs so don't worry if i own you guys any undone job or things i need to pass.

Just check my e-mail and Michael Yamashita’s is coming to Singapore for a photography seminar (OMG) and i cannot go !!!! He don't come to singapore often and like 2 times from what i know ... I'm going to miss my golden chance to take photo with him >o<"/ More detail : http://sdw.ap.sony.com/cgi-bin18/DM/y/eho0Wos40dH0BcN0E5

Some update about my projects:

A heart for them 2 :

The song is confirm and i choose "When LoveTakes You In" by Steven Curtis Chapman.
You might want to find out the lyrics if you don't know this song.

My Life Journey :

10 beautiful photos are selected. I will slowly do it when i find time and there might be a delay also but isn't good thing worth to wait ... agree bro lo ge?

Shall go and rest now. Nite everyone

Steven Curtis Chapman Shares His Family's Story of Healing

Steven Curtis Chapman Shares His Family's Story of Healing
when they lost their 5 yrs old daughter

http://abcnews.go.com/video/playerIndex?id=5524419

Story about Cinderella Music Video & story

A Q post.

If everyone thinking of giving up their life issue due to daily pressure, take a look @ this amazing video. Truly it touches my heart and i can't even imaging how he going to overcome the fear comparing to my studies or the working life ... but one thing for sure, God is with him ...

Thank Mai, Brother Tim and Brother Adrian + Louis and Wei Xiang and more whom encourage me for the past few months where i really feel the dryness in my course. Even though i really want to pack up everything and go to study my passion but i give myself a chance to finish up the race ... we will see how ... and course this video ... this person Tony Melendez quote

"I will move forward"

http://www.godtube.com/view_video.php?viewkey=73caf4691d83696b3b08

Paper 2 ... 4.00pm

Please don't get the wrong idea about my previous post of "Strangers or etc"

What i trying to say is myself and sister are not really comfortable for people who keep coming to our house and maybe we are just not open-minded enough. Just now, mom asks me "Why you and sis act like buay song attitude” and she say both of us got a narrow heart and not "Da fan" enough. Fine... i don't want to argue anymore...i trying to accept and have an open heart for others but now just give me a moment of silent ....

Exam Time-Table

18-8-08 Mechanical Design (0400pm to 0600pm)
19-8-08 Eng Mechanics (0400pm to 0600pm)
20-8-08 Math 2C (1230pm to 0230pm)
25-8-08 Thermo fluids (0900am to 1100am)

Back in 25-8-08

*One shot, One kill*

Today is Daddy birthday and by right should be happy occasion but i not and a bit angry too.
I did mention before about my brother girlfriend keep coming to our house every sunday afternoon. I'm pray that she is not invited because is our family occasion and it mean NO strangers unless you are already part of the family tree but mommy invite her . Just now i complain to daddy and said "Give me a break".

A lot of things been screw up for this week.

1) My air ticket surname is wrong and need to pay 100 bucks for the error. It's not my fault because i not the one who bk the ticket so i have to wait until monday to settle that issue with the admin person. I haven't pay the 100 bucks yet ..

2) I'm sprain my right ankle and don't know how i got it but feeling painful right now.

3) IPPT must clear by 1-10-08 and is like last minutes notices to me. I try to register after my b'day and they say cannot and now ... What is going on ...

4) My Daddy birthday isn't a happy occasion at all.

Doing revision and listening to songs ....

Piano Piano Piano ....

Listening to this song "Canon" ( My fav photography camera brand) play by jeffrey michael ....

So nice ......

Another song i like also is angels among us also played by him.

Piano Piano Piano ....

I got keyboard @ home but bro don't want to teach <.<" and you know la, he is a "MEOW" type person and because both of us got long fingers, he pick up keyboard and i pick up guitar but i don't want to 2 in 1 combo with him. No way !!!

Calling Bro T to teach me guitar... Wait for me ... O ya, we can exchange skills also leh ..
haha .. i want to play that song "far away from where you are" with Ah. B. Girl

Feel like flying back to Australia now. I'm craving the haigs chocolate and Copenhagen Ice Cream during my 2 weeks of vacation but now i won't be going back Australia for the next few years but switch my focus to USA and is another round of photography.










Ending is ... Ok. Just finish watching another HK drama and i giving 4.5/5 stars.
Well, if you really like HK drama .. jus watch this 当狗爱上猫 ... *hur hur*

Ok. I praying i can clear my 6 modules for this semester so i no need to own module from school.
Learn a nice quote from DK blog and motivate me to wack my test papers.

*Sorry for foul words*

Before these bunch of bastard finds you, you better kill them NOW.

Go Go Go .....

He is refering to the exam papers so jia you ok ^^.

Quite a lot of shout out for today post.

I'm very disappointed when someone actually STEAL your photos and make it as their portfolio which is dishonest and this morning i log in clubsnap forum and found this post about someone from oversea stealing local photographers photos and make it into his portfolio. There was once someone actually steal my idea and create into his photo .... "Idiot"












Brother today late for work again. This is the 3rd time he kana such problem because the previous night he chat with his girlfriend until quite late and as usual, this fellow can't wake up on time..

My air-ticket to Myanmar is confirm. Right now, i left about 16 days before depart from Singapore and happy because of the children's i going to visit with the villages that need our help right now. It's my passion and dream that come true again after Thailand trip *:P* and thank to my sister who help me to pay first and banzai to my sister because she is 100x better than my brother.

A lot of my classmate plan to go oversea study for their normal degree than local university and make me want to go also but but i see their requirement, i already feel like no hope anymore.
It's my dream to wear that "style o" hat because you are like "gao gao shan" *hur hur*.
There will be another way for me to wear that hat ONE DAY and .... i shall keep this as a secret until i manage to earn it.

Just finish my draft plan for the couple shooting call "Boy meet Girl"and it going to be fun and exciting. More detail coming soon but as from now, i just want to continue 3 projects after my exam..... Life Journey, University Grad and

A heart for them 2 ... finally i want to start that soon...

Read and Read. I'm have reach chapter 3 for "Where is God when it hurts?" but there are some part which i find it hard to understand and as usual, my brain start to spin and think ....

Yesterday went back school with the gang "LW, MX+ QX" and "ZY & BZ" cannot come until Wednesday. We study until 5.00pm, went down to have a cup of coffee and saw Miss Cher ( My YEP teacher) and told her that i going for Myanmar trip and some catch up with her la , she seen to be very tired ( teacher ma) and QX comment Miss Cher is a "chio bu" ( Pretty woman in hokkien) and i keep laughing because his 1st time speaking dialect.

We dismiss ourselves @ 7.50pm and went to amk hub because they want to see movies
but end up we watching people playing arcade games and don't understand why that uncle spend so much $$ for the sake of that reward ( An important anime T-shirt) because that digger game actually got some tactics + luck and chances of hitting the jackpot is 1/100000.

O well, how i wish you could spend the money for something useful by donate to world vision children whom needs the donation urgently right now ....

Can you see me? Will you find me?
Anyone out there searching for my desperate voice?
Is there a day call "hope"
Where are you when i need you?
Where is God when it hurts?

Written by: Towards Life

Reading the book from Philip Yancey updated version called "Where is God when it hurts?".

Just check my 1 year of collection of photos. Sometime i also don't know what am i shooting at because it just a 3 seconds decision “Shoot or Hold" and that is what a photographer eye is all about. Yesterday went for my 1st Myanmar meeting, i have a feeling that i might be the only guy among the team and when they mention about the rooms in the hotel, i somehow got it right. Ruthie said "Be a good brother and look after them". It's going to be fun because i saw the kid’s photo at "dayday" (A local lady over there) mac book and the kids are so cute but some.... well ... *shall not mention*.

I went home with 1 of the volunteer and he mentions something that i will do it for myself or for my children in the future.

"If there is a chance to help them (3rd world counties), it will be good time to grab this opportunity because when you are older, you got more commitment to face and you won't even think of going but giving a lots of excuses".

"When you become an old uncle, you don't even have the strength to go and some of my friend regret when age hits.

"The beautiful memories will always keep flowing with you because you won't be able to experience in Singapore not even once.”

Amen. I’m always encouraging people to go for our church mission trip at north Thailand because u can learn lesson from them ...

Sometime i just love to write poem/feeling even though my "ah mo" is damn sucks like "C- to D+" standard but he said "How about those don't even know how to write ABC yet can preach my words."Ok. This is God assurance to me. Anyway, i wrote this last friday while on my way back home and a poster inside my school caught my attention to write ....

I'm running too fast until i don't recognize myself.
When i look at the mirror, i wondering who this person is facing me
Without reaction, without smile but filled with worries and struggles
who am i?

A monkey swinging around this world or waiting for death to come
Somehow you come into my life and save my soul
when you ask this question again "Who am i?"
I'm just reply “I am yours”

Written by: Towards Life

I'm don't like every Sunday afternoon and don't like it since long ago. Can anyone chio me out every Sunday afternoon? If not, i will go for photography every Sunday after my exam just to escape for a while and possible can level up my skill *hur hur* Ok. Back to the topic.

My brother girlfriend will come to our house every Sunday and you know la, i don't really comfortable when someone keep coming and stay until 11pm+ then go home and is EVERY SUNDAY LOR!!! Sis complain to me that i must not like my brother. Of course man, i won't let my girlfriend stay out so late and my target to send her home is 10pm - 10.10pm unless got event or concert that will last later than 10pm. Reason is both are working adult and sleeping is very important for the next day so i will send her home early.

Don't like the idea of too much physical contact to each other before marriage. It's like you invited lust come into both party life which is not health at all and i pray that my girlfriend (whoever it is), please don't wear too sexy because we human are very easily tempted.
For me, i want to respect her body so do she respect herself and God standard.

These are not think too much *plz*. It's something practical for a Christian guy to know!! .
I just share my though & i want to escape my Sunday .. Happy pig looking for "kaki" to go for photography

Ah.B.girl said: You like to read books? What kind of books do you read? and i didn't even know you like to read books !?

Just finish writing my entires in my "Jour Jour 2" book. I'm found this sentence and reflect about my childhood day , personally i don't like to read too many words in a story book so i choose comics because you got to see pictures in "real life" rather than words that you must have a good imagination and is bored.. so bored until i sleep *zzz* *That was my past*

As the years goes by, i pick up books rather than comic and wondering why? Anyway my 1st Christian book i ever read is the Michael Card "A Violent Grace" that lead me back to Jesus once again and more books added into my list *Amen*.

Books are pretty expensive nowadays and most of the time if the books can borrow from library, i don't mind paying for the reserve fees and "chiong" to finish up within 2 weeks (I love bus/train journey because i got to read my book with nobody business). Anyway, i love books but not text book for your info *hur hur* and recently just place my order for 2 books and 1 CD from Chris Tomlin and Elisabeth Elliot and overall, it is much cheaper than Singapore.

Part 2 (Final)

Lian Sie bought for me this little art work when she go Cambodia. Too bad i cannot join her ...












The first b'day card given by louis. So cute right.












Army day. All my buddies. ORD LOR












Snoopy !! I forgot how i get it. This little doll got a long long story ....

















Final product. Finally is clean and sweet.

Part 1

After a long decision. I'm decided to re-arrange my "hidden" secret and is so dusty and look like i didn't re-arrange for almost 1years plus so let go ...

All my collection













I'm love Japanese beer and that Sapporo is special edition that i saw it @ NTUC.












Eat a lot of cereal and free those toys. Spider man is my favorite












I'm love this cup because i went to GOLD COAST for the LEATHER WEAPON RIDE. Damn crazy and i love the experience.













My favorite X-band from Japan. They are Do As Infinity....













The coke cups. I'm just want the running and swimming and extra is basketball.

The blog is back for operation. I'm have change the skin and remove a bit of stuff here and there but overall is still working as usual.

Morning went to church for lunch with some of cell members. When i reach the church, everyone seen to very low in spirit and...(shall not add in).Have i decided to go back? The answer is highly "yes". There are some issues that i don't wish to share over here as there are very sensitive issue happen so don't ask but pray for them ..

Bro A share with me about an issue that we people always "MIA" after church service and most of them didn't consider/bother to sit down with other fellow bro/sis for some "coffee-break" and i do agree with his view. I'm not saying is a must thing but at least make it an effort to spend extra minutes to listen to each of our bro/sis life even we are not v.close and didn't God mention something about fellowship/encourage each other and etc but somehow it just ... People just "FLY" away before you ask them for lunch of something? It's very disappointed whenever i see it ...but we are human .. so must learn to forgive also ...

Anyway this is not a cross-fire or arguing post but more to share from my heart
If any offense, please forgive.

Blog under construction ...


Come back in 4 days time ...

Still doing some changes ...


Jun

1st paper kick off. Seriously i was quite blur when i saw the first page because we somehow been "cheated" by the lecturer as he said "Study your tutorial ah" (Sound like a good tips right?) but overall is quite easy and straight forward question and no problem to clear this paper. *1 down 5 to go*

I'm called bro moses to discuss about my photo book as i need a adviser who know arts very well and glad that he willing to give me a help but on the other side, i also don't want to trouble him too long also as he still got a shop to "da li" too.

Every photo tells u a story of its own journey. A sentence that i treasure even more than before ... wondering why ..

4000 people packed into the Sunway Convention Center during passion tour in KL. I'm wish they will come to Singapore so that i no need to travel so far but when will be their next tour in Asia? No detail from now but wana find out their blog
info @ http://268generation.com/blog/

On 6-8-08. Once the clock hit 1715pm, my 1st common test being and sound like D-day where the American soldiers reach Omaha beach facing the towers filled with MG guns shooting @ them. I'm trying to imagining how to "beat" up 6 papers from now.

I'm start to believe something call "Din G" in life. If he want me to go through this dark tunnel, i have to put faith and trust and can i say i don't want? Of course i can but end of the day, he will say this is disobedient. Yesterday kana "scolded" by sis because i still holding back my wrong decision making matter and right now i given 2 choice "Drop my course and work plus don't regret for the next 30 years" or " Keep going until you cannot go anymore, repeat then repeat lor since you not going to uni for sure".

What is my choice?













2 one la. "mei ban fa le". What is the lesson that he want me to learn from here ? Trust, Obey, Lower my pride , Attitude and etc ...
Thank to fraz , seng and elene for listening.

Mommy is coming back in 2 days time.

25 years since you depart and today (6-8-08) is the day you went back home with Jesus
Hello grandmother !! I'm miss you.

Last night cycling cannot perform to my maximum. Before i reach the park, the whole body is like left 50% to go and this kind of condition, is either i too tired or my brain filled with thought but somehow today just want to sit down and listen to the sound of the sea ......... Long time never have such peace after coming back from Thailand where no fear , no burden , no stress, it just filled with peace and mercy.

Reach home, saw world vision send letter to sis and ask for permission to open up.
The first thing i saw is "Sold for sex .. Sophea was only 11 years old". My first reaction is "Lord, please help them to continue their life because fear will be their biggest enemy to overcome from now".

Learn something call interaction and public relationship skill. Anyway, the more events i went through, the more i dare to take super close shot and no wonder a lot photo pro will consider "16-35mm" lens as the best for some super creamy close up photo. It's not cheap at all ... but at least i have my lens to do my job

This is my 2nd attend for grad student photo taking. I'm must thank Desiree and her friends because i learn a lot for special angle and location that can make my work even more creamy than before so next shooting is for couple but still waiting for their reply. *I hope she is ok since the guy agree with my request*

Overall, i can only say this is God blessing because he give me skill to bless others. For me, photography is more than just a fun thing to do after 4 yrs of digital life and slowly picture speak to me a thousand words about his creation .. Amen.

No photo will be posted for the grad students as to protect their identity.
Sorry to my viewers.

I'm like Muttley because it is naughty and that nasty smile is something i always remember because is neither nasty nor funny. The title of the cartoon called Wacky Racer and is a 1968 creation. Anyway, i decided to paste Muttley picture @ somewhere during SC 08 Marathon run and let me kick off by pasting @ my lens hood first.















Recently doing some high-contrast photos that make the photos look awesome by twisting some ways but weak point is must be black and white and compare to HDR photo, there is no fight.

Memories Memories. I'm miss the days where all the funny and crap stuff i do with them beside admitting i quite old for such thing yet is fun to do it with the staff. It's a good memories i have before depart from them and looking forward for the reunion @ oct where our da jie wedding is ...haha.

Dinner went out with ah wei and we try that super nice fried rice that is worth money
plus he told me that he recently went to Vietnam for holiday and comment that the local lady are much much better than Singapore lady in term of attitude and standard.
It's like no fight at all. I'm just keep laughing and told him that MAI (My Vietnam pen-pal) is one of the kind that everyone wish to have as a wife because of her character and attitude and story con't ...

Seng Seng bought his new camera and is that G series which is good enough amount the D-compact or should i say it is mini-semi DSLR ?? Whatever la .. Cool, i waiting for him to come back and try out the system. Thank fr the encouragement

Photo copyright by :Kevin Loke aka Happy Pig.









School term is going to end and as usual, common test and exam is just around the corner and preparation is 50/50. Reflect two days ago i wrote that angry post about how i dislike my current course and hope this will be my last time complaining about schooling and next path of my study life, i make sure i get the course i really like to brush up not for the sake of paper and stop myself been burning like nobody business. This is a terrible feeling and i must let no papers "live" alive. B- & C is what i trying to aim for but add into my stupid mid term result, i think C- is more than a blessing.

I’m listening to building 429 album. I'm like the chorus where it says:

You carried me
You carried me
You carried me through it all
And I believe
Yes I believe
You'll carry me all the way home

Lord I know that you love me
I'll never doubt it
I can't live without it
Your mercy has found me
I am astounded
I can't live without it, oooh

Confess that i didn't walk very well with my Shepard since the starting of the year in Polytechnic as this is a period where trial hits me badly. I'm was quite lost and argue with him about why must i go back to engineer rather than visual course and it is something i cannot understand neither i want to listen at all. Whenever it hit me badly, the only thing that can melt my anger heart is the Old Rugged Cross and is not that originally cross neither is just a symbol but more than anything that speak to my heart every time i close my eye. Ok, this is not fairy tales but in my own self experience.

If I given a choice right now, i want to go back to where is the secret place.