Count down to 2010

Time files and more challenges coming up in life. Last night, i have OT for the 1st time @ this company and really very tired after the stock taking but somehow wei chio me for a late night coffee that delight my mood :X. The tension in my heart is lossing and is a good sign since ah rong point out the problem about my character and even mom did say too but i felt this is how a person been create by God so is whether you can accpet it a not but afterall, i need time to change.

All program kana cancel so i will at home ...

do my work

read my book

Slack and Run

Training for SunDown 42km with Yong !!!

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My simple photography slideshow .....

Still under construction

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Problem getting bigger in the family. I'm been affected by that and on the other hand, i myself still trying to overcome my biggest fear in my own heart so why am i trying to figure out the problem ?
Can someone tell me why? I'm feel so disappointed about myself and lost my way.

Isn't it already over ? The one that already gone is gone ... why i still standing there ?
Waiting for shit to drop or waiting for time to come and more shit to deal with ?

Lord, i lost.

Photography trip in 2010 : )

Where should i go? I know old Seletar camp is 1 of them but the rest will depend on my schedule and anyone keen to join me for any photography trip !?

Anyway, i will resume my photography book called "Within a Frame". After 1 year of long waiting, i finally have enough money to print out since is not going to be very cheap but is worth it after all and hope to showcase in the mid of Feb and perhaps pass this book to someone else where i own him a present since last year :X

Reflection of 2009

It's another year where little piglet faces more trouble than he expected while on his way home.

Since the day i step into poly, there are so many things happen within this short period of my school life and perhaps i been train to a numb stage where i feel nothing after all and of course, there also time of happiness too but not so much compare to ITE days.

School Life

I'm have major problem clearing some of the modules especially physics where i step into year 3. Seriously, i don't know what am i study for and getting so many "D's" and "F's" in my result slip isn't joking matter because everyone wants to get good grade for their parent to see but i didn't achieve it so the disappointed feeling is there whenever i see that happen again and again.

There are time i ask God "I didn't do my best ? or Am i in the right track ?". Every time i ask this question, someone will encourage me by quoting some verses like Jer , Phil and John. I'm feel encourage by the act of love and end of the day, i thank God because i going to grad soon ....
Finally, i can step into working world for a while before going back to study again.

Family

Every time i heard mom complain about my bro marriage, i feel so affected by her comment but i can't blame her because the request is very unreasonable and recently, they request even more "pin jin" and "gift" from us which is nonsense and bullshit.Is "guo da li" so hard to settle?
I'm sorry but i told my mom that is ENOUGH because overall, the fault come from my brother
not my family so ENOUGH IS ENOUGH, YOU SUCKS. Well, there will be a gathering next year where 2 family will face head to head so i hope i won't take an action to deal with this "lou pou"

Future

Someone asked me "What you want to be?" and my answer " I want to be a teacher" *shock*

Yesterday, i was helping my friend to do some planning for his his proposal and is pretty funny if anyone saw us but overall, the lady accept his proposal within 15 min which is quite fast :) Anyway, i told him that i will be help him to capture a simple proposal wedding photo in Jan 2010 and they will become my 1st outdoor client so i must do my best for them since they trust my photography skill :)

Congregation to David and Felice :)

Movies Movies. Wake up, open com and watch movies :)

Storm Warriors II

I'm can only say is average and a bit not nice too. The storyline .. hmm .. ok lor ...


















Awesome movie !! It's talk about family values which is good for everyone to watch. Although is 1h 1/2 show but still worth it : )


















Chinese Version Indiana Joe. I'm shall not say anything about the storyline since the release date in Singapore is 30th of December. Overall, i think jay zhou acting have improve a bit ... ha .. ya ...

My friends and still running .... 13th years liao









Gary and I !!

Old man's .... ops :X

Came back from movie screening with sis at down town east watching 十月圍城 and who say is boring and not nice ? Excellent storyline and lots of ppls die and sis say "TOO BLOODY". Overall, this is my 1st movie for 2009 before 2010. I'm want to watch Mr fantastic Fox but i have to wait for the dvd to come out ... ha ...

I'm enjoyed last Sunday with her alone at changi airport although i can sense the uneasy part but overall, i think life is like that ... pick and place ... agree ? From now, i must build up my foundation so that i can handle more in the future but as far as i know, God want me to obey him first before the wait can comes in so this is his decision and i obey.

The one that used to share Christ with me in sec day become a lesbian which i don't know why but i know is hurt that cause her to sweep away from Jesus ... ya ... pretty sad ...

Anyway, mom share with me something new again abt him and i just told her "Don't bother !!"
because i feel there is nothing to do right now and why should we bother since he first make that decision and now want to back-up !!!!

My prayer from now is hoping my mom will feel better rather than worry so much ....

I think my blog is very random .. ya .. no time to tidy up ...

Just came back from secondary gathering and i feel we are 1 year old and 1 year mature. People can change to bad/good depend on their choice and already no longer the same as we used to think off so do my group of friends that keep growing and some prepare to get marriage in 2011 which is expected as age is coming up ..... *Glad they have found their life partner*

Ah wei once said "Why Singaporean guys will find others beside our own people? The problem lies to the ladies expectation too high and some just keep dreaming for a "golden turtle". Well, i shall not comment that sentence but is something happening everywhere ....

In my house, there are some problem climbing up and wish to share with someone yet i couldn't because nobody understand beside ah wei and wen. I have to standby if needed .....

Mom was sharing some issues to me that shock me to the point that i feel this is too much from him and cannot believe he will misuse the "" for something that is risky yet haven't' settle behind payment which is really a huge amount of money.

Honestly, i feel there are so many negative than positive in this marriage and seriously that make me think even more what kind of person is the type where you can consider to take a "risk" in life. I'm feel the important part is the person characters/thinking/mindset beside their religion/education/states. One example is like someone can be a uni grade yet their thinking is like fairytale in life which i already seen it in personal and the only thing i can do is *Shake my Head* After all , i hate those people who will "teh" themselves to win their goal and i show no respect for them.

My mom won't believe in Christ because there is no good example for them to see ....
That my conclusion .... of course, we must keep praying .....

Still painful :(

Anyway, i want to watch 十月圍城, anyone ??

Christmas is coming.... Taking photo for the church ?

Hmm ... I don't know but i looking forward on 26th of DEC and hopefully i no need to go back office so that i can go to city hall and take my morning shoot again.

Saving to buy a water bag because i decided to pick up a more challenging marathon which is sundown in 2010 ......

Sleep liao ...

A random post ...

Yesterday, my da ge aka Louis said "I feel sian during the retreat because you wasn't there" and he con't type in the "sian" words 10 time in a roll which make me feel "Wa !! You, Kai wang xiao".
Anyway, i think everyone enjoy the retreat so i happy for everyone :)

I'm currently reading the book call "You GOT a mail" and is all about the book of Rev or last book of the bible or end time if you wana say that way .... ok ... deep study so i need to think more ...

Need time to think ... Think ... Think ....

I'm want to "cry" because is very painful to the point my tears almost come out O_O"

This morning, i woke up with a painful aching feeling and is my left shoulder that is hurt *ouch*

Need to apply medic oil later : O

Work also very heavy and today was quite smooth BUT ...... haiz ...

Meet up with David just now. This is my 13 years old sec friend that live nearby my house.

Anyway, i told him what happen about my relationship and he feel is a bit wasted because the problem is not 2 people but rather the unnecessary pressure been created by people and many more. In the end of the conversation, he say "Can't both of u try to work out again? I can tell you still concern for her but just that your bloody mouth don't want to admit".

Admit ?

Don't Admit ?

God know

I'm admit this show always make my tears roll down because of their living condition and their children which i can't imaging how a child can actually live in such poor condition yet they choose to be humble and love their parent like no others.

I'm pray the Lord will help them in their daily life ....

Well, you must watch then can understand what i trying to say ...

Next Monday 8pm , Channel 8 !!

Mom love my Phenom desktop and she keep using until i have to wait for her finishing using *lol*

Recently, i have put in some hong kong drama for her to watch and she really watch like nobody business which i don't know whether is it a good sign for her but at least, i know when she bored, she can enjoy herself after finishing all the household in the morning *Thank Mom*

Thank God for the wonderful blessing. I'm finally finish 99% of the old record (bring over by the previous worker) which really give me hellish period for the past few days and i seriously don't bother what my Operation Manager comment about me so long i have done my best. End of the day, it is God who look at my attitude so i just do my best :) .....

I'm also found a new way to deal with "heavy" load at my position so hopefully my supervisor can support my idea and if he do, the job will be back to normal very soon but require a bit of time to make some changes for now....

Today msg by Pastor Joshua is a awaking call for everyone. I'm personally love to listen to his sermon because his way is like John Piper that really "punch" your heart to reflect/listen/read God words and today he say "Why can't we just put our heart and believe him" and "Why can't we give thank in time of good and bad?".

It's been a year since you break our promise of going back to that store (Maxwell road) for our brotherhood gathering and still remember that day? I miss you, my dear brother :)

2009 is going to end in less than 20 days but i still a student until 20/2/10 where i official grad from this school that bring back a lot of good memories with some of my "kaki".

Career is my next step and shall not mention any detail since i want to keep a low profile but for sure, i want to go back school and upgrade myself before become a teacher ( if this is God will). Another great news coming up is that i will set-up a photography website to promo my services so that i can earn/learn : ).

As for 2010, i hope to go back for mission trip in everywhere and con't the work that is undone.

When the door shut, the conversation begin and everything been share is nothing but bad. I'm will say this is your own choice and nothing but yours so don't blame anyone in the end of the day because if you know that disaster is going to happen, why can't you stop it than let it continue?

"Save skin" is pride and is sin in God eyes. So what the person is talented in some area in his/her yet the heart is so ugly in everyone eyes and can't believe they can say " I love God".

Anyway, i have a nice chat with mom just now because she been unhappy over some incident which i feel there is nothing we can do but to finish up the show. Overall, i have a difference attitude looking at such incident so no point keep complain but rather let it be ...

Save time and Save water :)

It's good to keep a low profile when nobody really notices where the hell you are and where you go. Finally, i have make myself extreme low profile again ...

Coffee is good. I can chat with friends and boast my brain to think clearly. Last night, i was sharing with ah wei about what going on and why bright people can have such shallow thinking ... isn't that weird ?

Anyway, i watching "The Blind Side" movie act by Sandra Bullock (Not available in Singapore) and is quite nice.

16 days to work for half day

15 days to Christmas

9 days to Sec Gathering

2 days to FTT

Today, i just feeling so tired and how i wish to buy a roll of B/W film for Nanako and bring my 50D aka Cheryl along for photography only.

Time to go and work. ... ... ... ... ... ...

Pass over problem to problem and become big problem.

Today, i struggle to clear the "old debt" from the previous worker and she didn't do a lot plus some missing invoice which given me a huge headache. On the other hand, the engineer dealer keep calling me to go down and draw store for them which delay my work and i currently holding 3 position and only 2 people working ( my supervisor and myself). *Crazy*

I need to sleep now. Nite.

We are right and perhaps this is what you call yourself a christian and still "chop" .......

I'm more "brighter" compare to others who still thinking of those old ways.

Last night family group discussion (without my bro OF course !!) was great and we shared out our view and this is what i call a TRUE family where everyone desire to gather.

Well, i shall not comment much about what happen ...

But from now, the tail is out and lies flying around. What a day ....

2:40:34
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Improve by 3mins+ compare to 2006 record.

Finish 21km and this year road is harder than last year. My timing is around the same as 2006 or maybe a bit better so let just wait for the result list first. Thank God because i didn't train enough for this year so i was quite surprise that i able to completed the whole race without any serious injury.

I'm finish the race at 9.55am and hoping for miracle to happen but it didn't so i wait for yong to come back for his 42km at around 12.15pm which i wait more than 3 hrs doing nothing but just looking at people while taking a good rest.

42km in 2010? That what yong challenge me ...Let me think about it first ....

Part 2 (final)

Met up with some of the church bro/sis for dinner.
Welcome back ROGER :)
Gong Xin Adrian Lee for having a very nice and sweet girlfriend liao :)

I'm bring along this paper and asked them to write for me :)

These are the before/after pix

Part 1

Just finish maintenance for the desktop and laptop (both format and install window XP and 7) which took me quite a while before setting down. The time is 1.00am and just finish the work and feel so tired now ....

Anyway, i don't think the marriage will work out for long but rather is suffering .. hmm ..

Ok. This is not my business so don't bother

Pray before sleep

nite

I'm waiting those files to finish downloading which like "Snail zzz zzz zzz". Next year, i going to kick starhub out from the internet and welcome Singnet because this area too many people using starhub and is too slow which i can't do anything much about it.

Found that song that i used to listen in a wedding slide show so maybe can use it for his and her wedding photo *hint hint* Anyway, it will be 20th of November 2010 which i don't need to say anything but u know who :X

Don't worry, even i your knocking door buddy also can take excellent photo but you must trust the photographer that won't disappointed your heart :)

Plan to go UBIN after i can purchase that 6 in 1 filter which make me "WOW" and is cheap :)