Count down to 2010

Time files and more challenges coming up in life. Last night, i have OT for the 1st time @ this company and really very tired after the stock taking but somehow wei chio me for a late night coffee that delight my mood :X. The tension in my heart is lossing and is a good sign since ah rong point out the problem about my character and even mom did say too but i felt this is how a person been create by God so is whether you can accpet it a not but afterall, i need time to change.

All program kana cancel so i will at home ...

do my work

read my book

Slack and Run

Training for SunDown 42km with Yong !!!

http://dkphoto.freewebpage.org

My simple photography slideshow .....

Still under construction

Stay tune :D

Problem getting bigger in the family. I'm been affected by that and on the other hand, i myself still trying to overcome my biggest fear in my own heart so why am i trying to figure out the problem ?
Can someone tell me why? I'm feel so disappointed about myself and lost my way.

Isn't it already over ? The one that already gone is gone ... why i still standing there ?
Waiting for shit to drop or waiting for time to come and more shit to deal with ?

Lord, i lost.

Photography trip in 2010 : )

Where should i go? I know old Seletar camp is 1 of them but the rest will depend on my schedule and anyone keen to join me for any photography trip !?

Anyway, i will resume my photography book called "Within a Frame". After 1 year of long waiting, i finally have enough money to print out since is not going to be very cheap but is worth it after all and hope to showcase in the mid of Feb and perhaps pass this book to someone else where i own him a present since last year :X

Reflection of 2009

It's another year where little piglet faces more trouble than he expected while on his way home.

Since the day i step into poly, there are so many things happen within this short period of my school life and perhaps i been train to a numb stage where i feel nothing after all and of course, there also time of happiness too but not so much compare to ITE days.

School Life

I'm have major problem clearing some of the modules especially physics where i step into year 3. Seriously, i don't know what am i study for and getting so many "D's" and "F's" in my result slip isn't joking matter because everyone wants to get good grade for their parent to see but i didn't achieve it so the disappointed feeling is there whenever i see that happen again and again.

There are time i ask God "I didn't do my best ? or Am i in the right track ?". Every time i ask this question, someone will encourage me by quoting some verses like Jer , Phil and John. I'm feel encourage by the act of love and end of the day, i thank God because i going to grad soon ....
Finally, i can step into working world for a while before going back to study again.

Family

Every time i heard mom complain about my bro marriage, i feel so affected by her comment but i can't blame her because the request is very unreasonable and recently, they request even more "pin jin" and "gift" from us which is nonsense and bullshit.Is "guo da li" so hard to settle?
I'm sorry but i told my mom that is ENOUGH because overall, the fault come from my brother
not my family so ENOUGH IS ENOUGH, YOU SUCKS. Well, there will be a gathering next year where 2 family will face head to head so i hope i won't take an action to deal with this "lou pou"

Future

Someone asked me "What you want to be?" and my answer " I want to be a teacher" *shock*

Yesterday, i was helping my friend to do some planning for his his proposal and is pretty funny if anyone saw us but overall, the lady accept his proposal within 15 min which is quite fast :) Anyway, i told him that i will be help him to capture a simple proposal wedding photo in Jan 2010 and they will become my 1st outdoor client so i must do my best for them since they trust my photography skill :)

Congregation to David and Felice :)

Movies Movies. Wake up, open com and watch movies :)

Storm Warriors II

I'm can only say is average and a bit not nice too. The storyline .. hmm .. ok lor ...


















Awesome movie !! It's talk about family values which is good for everyone to watch. Although is 1h 1/2 show but still worth it : )


















Chinese Version Indiana Joe. I'm shall not say anything about the storyline since the release date in Singapore is 30th of December. Overall, i think jay zhou acting have improve a bit ... ha .. ya ...

My friends and still running .... 13th years liao









Gary and I !!

Old man's .... ops :X

Came back from movie screening with sis at down town east watching 十月圍城 and who say is boring and not nice ? Excellent storyline and lots of ppls die and sis say "TOO BLOODY". Overall, this is my 1st movie for 2009 before 2010. I'm want to watch Mr fantastic Fox but i have to wait for the dvd to come out ... ha ...

I'm enjoyed last Sunday with her alone at changi airport although i can sense the uneasy part but overall, i think life is like that ... pick and place ... agree ? From now, i must build up my foundation so that i can handle more in the future but as far as i know, God want me to obey him first before the wait can comes in so this is his decision and i obey.

The one that used to share Christ with me in sec day become a lesbian which i don't know why but i know is hurt that cause her to sweep away from Jesus ... ya ... pretty sad ...

Anyway, mom share with me something new again abt him and i just told her "Don't bother !!"
because i feel there is nothing to do right now and why should we bother since he first make that decision and now want to back-up !!!!

My prayer from now is hoping my mom will feel better rather than worry so much ....

I think my blog is very random .. ya .. no time to tidy up ...

Just came back from secondary gathering and i feel we are 1 year old and 1 year mature. People can change to bad/good depend on their choice and already no longer the same as we used to think off so do my group of friends that keep growing and some prepare to get marriage in 2011 which is expected as age is coming up ..... *Glad they have found their life partner*

Ah wei once said "Why Singaporean guys will find others beside our own people? The problem lies to the ladies expectation too high and some just keep dreaming for a "golden turtle". Well, i shall not comment that sentence but is something happening everywhere ....

In my house, there are some problem climbing up and wish to share with someone yet i couldn't because nobody understand beside ah wei and wen. I have to standby if needed .....

Mom was sharing some issues to me that shock me to the point that i feel this is too much from him and cannot believe he will misuse the "" for something that is risky yet haven't' settle behind payment which is really a huge amount of money.

Honestly, i feel there are so many negative than positive in this marriage and seriously that make me think even more what kind of person is the type where you can consider to take a "risk" in life. I'm feel the important part is the person characters/thinking/mindset beside their religion/education/states. One example is like someone can be a uni grade yet their thinking is like fairytale in life which i already seen it in personal and the only thing i can do is *Shake my Head* After all , i hate those people who will "teh" themselves to win their goal and i show no respect for them.

My mom won't believe in Christ because there is no good example for them to see ....
That my conclusion .... of course, we must keep praying .....

Still painful :(

Anyway, i want to watch 十月圍城, anyone ??

Christmas is coming.... Taking photo for the church ?

Hmm ... I don't know but i looking forward on 26th of DEC and hopefully i no need to go back office so that i can go to city hall and take my morning shoot again.

Saving to buy a water bag because i decided to pick up a more challenging marathon which is sundown in 2010 ......

Sleep liao ...

A random post ...

Yesterday, my da ge aka Louis said "I feel sian during the retreat because you wasn't there" and he con't type in the "sian" words 10 time in a roll which make me feel "Wa !! You, Kai wang xiao".
Anyway, i think everyone enjoy the retreat so i happy for everyone :)

I'm currently reading the book call "You GOT a mail" and is all about the book of Rev or last book of the bible or end time if you wana say that way .... ok ... deep study so i need to think more ...

Need time to think ... Think ... Think ....

I'm want to "cry" because is very painful to the point my tears almost come out O_O"

This morning, i woke up with a painful aching feeling and is my left shoulder that is hurt *ouch*

Need to apply medic oil later : O

Work also very heavy and today was quite smooth BUT ...... haiz ...

Meet up with David just now. This is my 13 years old sec friend that live nearby my house.

Anyway, i told him what happen about my relationship and he feel is a bit wasted because the problem is not 2 people but rather the unnecessary pressure been created by people and many more. In the end of the conversation, he say "Can't both of u try to work out again? I can tell you still concern for her but just that your bloody mouth don't want to admit".

Admit ?

Don't Admit ?

God know

I'm admit this show always make my tears roll down because of their living condition and their children which i can't imaging how a child can actually live in such poor condition yet they choose to be humble and love their parent like no others.

I'm pray the Lord will help them in their daily life ....

Well, you must watch then can understand what i trying to say ...

Next Monday 8pm , Channel 8 !!

Mom love my Phenom desktop and she keep using until i have to wait for her finishing using *lol*

Recently, i have put in some hong kong drama for her to watch and she really watch like nobody business which i don't know whether is it a good sign for her but at least, i know when she bored, she can enjoy herself after finishing all the household in the morning *Thank Mom*

Thank God for the wonderful blessing. I'm finally finish 99% of the old record (bring over by the previous worker) which really give me hellish period for the past few days and i seriously don't bother what my Operation Manager comment about me so long i have done my best. End of the day, it is God who look at my attitude so i just do my best :) .....

I'm also found a new way to deal with "heavy" load at my position so hopefully my supervisor can support my idea and if he do, the job will be back to normal very soon but require a bit of time to make some changes for now....

Today msg by Pastor Joshua is a awaking call for everyone. I'm personally love to listen to his sermon because his way is like John Piper that really "punch" your heart to reflect/listen/read God words and today he say "Why can't we just put our heart and believe him" and "Why can't we give thank in time of good and bad?".

It's been a year since you break our promise of going back to that store (Maxwell road) for our brotherhood gathering and still remember that day? I miss you, my dear brother :)

2009 is going to end in less than 20 days but i still a student until 20/2/10 where i official grad from this school that bring back a lot of good memories with some of my "kaki".

Career is my next step and shall not mention any detail since i want to keep a low profile but for sure, i want to go back school and upgrade myself before become a teacher ( if this is God will). Another great news coming up is that i will set-up a photography website to promo my services so that i can earn/learn : ).

As for 2010, i hope to go back for mission trip in everywhere and con't the work that is undone.

When the door shut, the conversation begin and everything been share is nothing but bad. I'm will say this is your own choice and nothing but yours so don't blame anyone in the end of the day because if you know that disaster is going to happen, why can't you stop it than let it continue?

"Save skin" is pride and is sin in God eyes. So what the person is talented in some area in his/her yet the heart is so ugly in everyone eyes and can't believe they can say " I love God".

Anyway, i have a nice chat with mom just now because she been unhappy over some incident which i feel there is nothing we can do but to finish up the show. Overall, i have a difference attitude looking at such incident so no point keep complain but rather let it be ...

Save time and Save water :)

It's good to keep a low profile when nobody really notices where the hell you are and where you go. Finally, i have make myself extreme low profile again ...

Coffee is good. I can chat with friends and boast my brain to think clearly. Last night, i was sharing with ah wei about what going on and why bright people can have such shallow thinking ... isn't that weird ?

Anyway, i watching "The Blind Side" movie act by Sandra Bullock (Not available in Singapore) and is quite nice.

16 days to work for half day

15 days to Christmas

9 days to Sec Gathering

2 days to FTT

Today, i just feeling so tired and how i wish to buy a roll of B/W film for Nanako and bring my 50D aka Cheryl along for photography only.

Time to go and work. ... ... ... ... ... ...

Pass over problem to problem and become big problem.

Today, i struggle to clear the "old debt" from the previous worker and she didn't do a lot plus some missing invoice which given me a huge headache. On the other hand, the engineer dealer keep calling me to go down and draw store for them which delay my work and i currently holding 3 position and only 2 people working ( my supervisor and myself). *Crazy*

I need to sleep now. Nite.

We are right and perhaps this is what you call yourself a christian and still "chop" .......

I'm more "brighter" compare to others who still thinking of those old ways.

Last night family group discussion (without my bro OF course !!) was great and we shared out our view and this is what i call a TRUE family where everyone desire to gather.

Well, i shall not comment much about what happen ...

But from now, the tail is out and lies flying around. What a day ....

2:40:34
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Improve by 3mins+ compare to 2006 record.

Finish 21km and this year road is harder than last year. My timing is around the same as 2006 or maybe a bit better so let just wait for the result list first. Thank God because i didn't train enough for this year so i was quite surprise that i able to completed the whole race without any serious injury.

I'm finish the race at 9.55am and hoping for miracle to happen but it didn't so i wait for yong to come back for his 42km at around 12.15pm which i wait more than 3 hrs doing nothing but just looking at people while taking a good rest.

42km in 2010? That what yong challenge me ...Let me think about it first ....

Part 2 (final)

Met up with some of the church bro/sis for dinner.
Welcome back ROGER :)
Gong Xin Adrian Lee for having a very nice and sweet girlfriend liao :)

I'm bring along this paper and asked them to write for me :)

These are the before/after pix

Part 1

Just finish maintenance for the desktop and laptop (both format and install window XP and 7) which took me quite a while before setting down. The time is 1.00am and just finish the work and feel so tired now ....

Anyway, i don't think the marriage will work out for long but rather is suffering .. hmm ..

Ok. This is not my business so don't bother

Pray before sleep

nite

I'm waiting those files to finish downloading which like "Snail zzz zzz zzz". Next year, i going to kick starhub out from the internet and welcome Singnet because this area too many people using starhub and is too slow which i can't do anything much about it.

Found that song that i used to listen in a wedding slide show so maybe can use it for his and her wedding photo *hint hint* Anyway, it will be 20th of November 2010 which i don't need to say anything but u know who :X

Don't worry, even i your knocking door buddy also can take excellent photo but you must trust the photographer that won't disappointed your heart :)

Plan to go UBIN after i can purchase that 6 in 1 filter which make me "WOW" and is cheap :)

JR quote "Let it be now is time to craft my future and career" and "our poly 光辉岁月"

I'm keep smiling because this is what i going to focus at for the next few years before going back to school if this is God will and secondly, i going to miss my friends and some lecturers in my school which something i treausre the most during my hardtime where we lift up each other :)

I won't want to share much about my IAP as i feel messy and i don't like unclear instruction so let me fight for some more days before making any comment. The worst part is i need to work on Saturday which like "my ubin trip is cancel".

Shall listen beyond songs now *wow wow*

Just came back from a short trip. Thank God for the small break from Singapore where i feel so "buzz" sometime and also to the bros and sis for those laughter and crap joke that almost qualified for the media corp acting class.

During the trip, i think a lot , eat a lot and walk a lot. Well, i did broke down a bit when i heard the song " When the day i let you go" by kavin hoo because this piano music make me think back some unhappiness issue which i know God want to make it happen so that we can learn who is he in our life and who is the one control everything. Anyway, i feel i have change in my character which i don't know whether is it true but somehow i look at issue is no longer so simple but rather think even deeper for others before myself so is it good ?

Haiz .. i receive bad news on friday abt "xxx xxx jump down xxx" which is a bit shocking but is it a solution for that ? I don't know why people want to go that way ... really don't understand ....

Ok. I will pray for him and his family .....

WX said : Our Adventurous Bro

OCH said : caught him who risk his life to take all the good shots. haha

I'm like this photo because it speak about me as a person, as my character and most important my passion in photography and look about life in a different view from others people. Anyway, i receive a lot of "complain" by the brothers because i always challenge to dangerous area just to take good photo and how to stop me?

2 days to go :(

I'm just let it be since yesterday the Mr.k say something damn nasty like "Are u a Singaporean?"and add on another " Have you finish NS?".
It's personal attack but i just don't bother anymore because he is just another bastard i going to face in my working life so i just hack care and don't give a damn. I'm remind myself that "i won't say such to my students if i a teacher in the future because you show no respect to a human".

As far as i know, i will know where am i going on wednesday :D

Now, i jsut take good photo and of course ... good photo

Looking at Cheryl for the past few days, i was wondering how this little "gal" grown up with me for the past few month where i first purchase her from someone else. I'm wish to continue those undone projects but because of my time and study, i have to link it up everything and form a story telling which is much better than stand alone.

1 great example is project Cheryl combine with project 16 years old. Reason is both are human, able to share even more in my photo and most important is "What is your thinking when you are 16 year's old?" Isn't that wonderful to ask that even you now 20's , 30's or 50's.

That time, i thinking of going to poly which dream come true after 8years later so what yours?

I'm hope people understand why sometime i have to cancel the project because all these project need time to take photo, edit, think about the story flow so it is not easy to do it after all.

Ok. I have my presentation now. Byee

Drop those undone personal projects since i don't see there is any direction from now so drop it.
Recently, i reading a Chinese novel book and impress by the way how the author express a 16 years old whom going to die soon due to cancer and this given me an idea of how i think when i was 16 year's old.

That year, i want to have my 1st girlfriend, experience working life , career as a business man and more .... so what is your dream during that year, that period of time ?

It's going to be exciting base on the theme itself and currently looking for a suitable music :D.

Project --> 16 year's old dream (2011)

Next Tuesday, i will format my computer and install all the latest updated program that i need to learn for the next 1 year and since Monday will be my presentation, i going to say GOODBYE TO MY SCHOOL and HELLO to WORKPLACE.

FTT @ 12-12-09 and hope i can pass so i can quickly go to school and register myself ...

I feel everything will be in a rush mode but really no time to think twice from now since i going to start working soon so who care .... rush mode ....

Complete Modern Warfare 2 and really praise the people's who work so hard for this game and truly is a masterpiece i ever seen for a FPS game :)

Looking at Cheryl for the past few days and this little "gal" have grown up with me for almost 4 month since i bought it back home. Last Saturday trip to changi boardwalk was awesome because it been a while for me to go for some photography trip just to relax myself and this little "gal" will just follow me inside my bag :).

Thanks to WX and CH for org this event because is what i need it now and good to relax myself too.

My days in NYP is 3 days only :(

Tomorrow bring my Cheryl out :)

By the way, Cheryl is my Canon 50D so don't mistaken is a lady and beside that, i don't have time to consider anyone until the door is open again but confirm not for the next 2 years.

*Piss off in the lab*

The student that teacher allow him to used the lab mess up my area and bloody messy >_<"

He "spoil" the suction cup and didn't fit it back + run away without info anyone because i already went for lunch and when i come back and spotted that, that really bloody piss me off and personally i dislike dishonest people !!!!

Lucky, i know how to fit it back .....

Bump into quite a lot of friends recently and1 like 4 years already after i ORD from army.

Sat spot Hui Wing at white sand after having lunch at vivo with pris and sis *The foods is gd :)*

Monday spot Gary aka Fat at NYP with his girlfriend (Former NYP student in Media & Design) and they just sign the paper at HDB for built to buy at sengkang. I'm going to receive my 1st red bomb from my secondary friend and so happy for him and the wedding will be 2012 (Confirm) but in the mean time, the company sponsor him to SIM for study *Shiok man*

Yesterday spot Zhong Hua at houang point while i at the bus stop. He is my sgt in my army day but a very cute person who like classics song ... *ha ha*

Bad news also coming in and all boy girl relationship which kinda make me feel so shit.

David broke up with SJ after "ren" from her all those nonsense from SJ which i kinda of expected because SJ is those typical type where easy get angry and give you nonsense if you make her angry. I ask myself some important questions "Why go for this relationship?" and "If you know she is those type, why you still go for it in the first place?".

WL g.f broke up with him before they about to go for ROM which is quite shocking to me but i can only say "There is nothing you can do" + "She bastard you because she found someone better".

After listening to all these, i learn even more about " What is Confirm?"

"If you are not sure about the person character, please don't give a damn chance and do a thick research first before accept it.

Please don't say "try try" or "take a risk" because i don't think anyone want to go for that because in the end, you are hurting others not yourself.

"The problem is not how you forgive that person but is how to forget the hurt" -- Jerry aka mo bin

Having tea break with Jerry and he commented something that i realize is either you do it or you don't towards the issue because whatever the damage is been made, you cannot cover the scar but only let it heal by itself. How long? That depend on how the damage been made?

Personally i feel ........... *con't*

Anyway, i seeking God advice to see which is the best choice for me and if this is God will, i will go and leave behind everything ....

Pray while seeking ....

I'm love library.

The reason is i can borrow those DVD/Audio disc since 1-7-09 where in the past only special membership can borrow but now i also able to borrow 2 per card :D.

Borrow national geographic , discovery channel ......

Simply love it.

This song rock my lab room for the whole day. 3 big reasons behind

1) My favorite J pop group band

2) The song is super rock and extreme nice

3) One of the best anime i watch from 2008-2009 and the author of Ranma 1/2 if you happen to know

I'm know i have to handle the media but is a matter of time only. 2 people know about it but i just be bother anymore since is a waste of time to find out more and i find it crap if people want to gossip around which make themselves a fool.

I'm planning for my future of where to kick off and where to find sponsorship if there is any chance for me to excel in some industry level but someone mention to me that i should start working than study right now because experience is 50/50 needed but as for paper, it just help you to go management level and full stop.

Start planning a lot of things especially when dad going to retired in 2 years time and brother going to marry in less than 3 months time, the household will be the 1st problem i going to face beside returning the CPF money every month after i grad from poly so financial will be a major issue for me to consider right now.

My boss is happy for the prograss and finally he say something nice ....

I know my main focus is keep research and keep trying out new stuff

Piang ah .. Is that what he really want /

Haiz ....

I sleepy mood ...

Lost my moody sleep for the past few days ...

No mood

After finish reading "Sis X" e-mail and it let me reflect a lot of issues that can help me to find out what is the problem about myself and how come i find back the assurance again. Sometime, i keep asking papa a question " Is there any other ways?" and it make me feel sad when i look back the incident because is very complicated and only him can answer me .......

I want to take a long break from there and somewhere where i can take a break ... ya .. seriously...
Papa, please bring me along okie ....

November is like so happening to me

22 days to go --> Malacca trip with CH, TM, TT , MH and 1 friend.

21 days to go --> End of FYP ( Finally)

9 days to go --> Photography trip

9 days to go --> Fong Ling and Sharon Store

9 days to go --> Jamming part 3

2 day to go --> Steamboat

1 day to go --> Dinner with alan

? day to go --> Chiong my ppt, report

Date Grand Prix (Circuit)
April 11th* Qatar (Losail)
April 25th Japan (Motegi)
May 2nd Spain (Jerez)
May 23rd France (Le Mans)
June 6th Italy (Mugello)
June 20th Great Britain (Silverstone)
June 26th** Netherlands (Assen)
July 4th Catalunya (Catalunya)
July 18th Germany (Sachsenring)
July 25th*** United States (Laguna Seca)
August 22nd Czech Republic (Brno)
August 29th Indianapolis (Indianapolis)
September 5th San Marino & Riviera di Rimini (Misano)
September 19th Hungary (Balatonring)
October 10th Malaysia (Sepang)
October 17th Australia (Phillip Island)
October 31st Portugal (Estoril)
November 7th Valencia (Ricardo Tormo Valencia)

Reserve Circuit: Motorland Aragon Circuit

I want to go GP again :X

Updating my schedule for the month of November and December. I'm must say is fully booked.

Counting down my days to own back my little comfortable bedroom which i been looking forwards for the past few years and waiting for my FYP to be done, then maintenance for my "Freedom aka AMD 64bits" computer before IAP being in December which kinda of looking forwards to it.

Just finish chatting with mommy and what she say "Old Cow eat grass"
i know the meaning and true enough ....experience win over knowledge :)

Just feel bored and decide to type in a stupid short fantasy story. No link at all .... LOL ...

Battle with the witch alone has been a major problem for the prince because it is impossible to keep on fight while the princess don't help him nor heal him. He feel so tired and frustrated until he decide to run back and wait for old knight to help him and fight together to save the princess. Even thought he know that the princess weakness point is always want instant result from them which kinda feel she is so deceive by the witch words.

The witch is very happy because she won the battle BUT it just a beinging only. When the old knight heard the story from the prince how the princess disconnect with the prince is not only caught off-guard but also very angry why the princess keep listening to the witch because the old knight see the value of the prince from his eyes but the princess don't and want her ways.

The old knight haven't burst out his fire yet as he is watching very closely, sneaky and preparing his own weapon yet and only the prince can tell by his action because he believe justice will be done soon but he will burst the fire only when the time is up but problem lies to the princess whom DON'T trust the old knight nor the prince so the 2 men think and decide God deal with the princess while they do their homework ......

The story will only Continue depending on whether the princess want to wake up for her fairly tale dream.

11.27pm

I'm decided to type in what i feel right now since i waiting for the big match at 12am tomorrow.

Angry? Frustrated? Silent? and what next? Shout out ? DON'T BE STUPID LA !!

Well, i want to thank my church brothers because they know i very tired already because of my stupid school work , x & x issue , family , career and others problem yet they choose to keep me in their prayer book which i own them a million thanks for that. Thank you for knowing what kinds of SHIT i facing right now and please treat me an ice-cream after my FYP is done :)

Just finish chatting with sis "X" and is like long time never catch up with her so we chat a bit and after the whole conversation that last 20mins and glad she understand what i told her. I'm also told her that i don't bother how people look at me right now because they don't know the whole story but i feel this is none of your business and if you really concern, then please pray for me not gossip around.

After that incident, i remembered God reminds me "TIME is your winning strategy" which i feel doubt and ask myself "Why must be time? not the heart? not the eyes BUT time?" but after yesterday night, the truth finally come out which is no doubt after all because i know it long ago yet i choose to kept silent.

• All along, that pair of innocent eyes is blindfolded and keep assuming is open yet isn't, so only time will tell the person that you all along are blindfolded.

• Heart wasn't the thing that the eyes is looking at but see the overall package which is wrong in the being. Is Heart important or package important? Time will tell the eyes.

• It's time to wake up and NOT keep on following instruction which lead to self destruction.
  

It's very "chim" to understand but this is my indirect way to speak out how i feel last night.

2.55am

Running nose and still awake because i need to finish download this file before i can do for tomorrow tasks. Anyway, i was a bit bored so decided to listen to simple plan songs which i don't know why but at least i enjoying some rockish music.....

1.54am

I'm still not sleeping yet because i just finish chatting with mommy and right now i want to blog which i want to do it now.

First of all, i want to thank 3 person. My mommy , My Die Hard Buddy , My Jie Mei.

Second, i have a nice time catch up with wen after Friday event. I'm cannot believe we know each other for more than 15 years which is amazing how we stay contact until today and truly he is my best buddy. I told him all the unhappiness that i face for the past few month which is damn crazy till i hate to say that again and AGAIN but at least some issue is settle so let just don't bother it anymore.

Third, i want to thank mommy for her effort to listen to me and i love you :).

Lastly, i feel like going back to Thailand :X

Nothing good about my FYP because is really sucks ....

Have a nice dinner with my "jie mei"at city link instant of downtown east because i really very hungry so we decide to change the location. I think our last catch up is like 1 year ago :X but i really enjoy the time and we update each other about life issue ... ya .... thank for her view and guide.

Went to JB with sister and bought 2 books :D. 20% off for the right side of the book and i feel that malaysia is going to be a place where i will be often going in the future because most of the items are cheaper than Singapore.

Counting down my days in school and perhaps, i don't really like what is happening right now.

Well ..... life goes on ....

BUSY !!!

My boss give me MORE crap to do :O !!

Tomorrow i just want to clear things BEFORE i do others :X

Looking at your surrounding and be the inspire of this image :)

Kevin Loke

This week schedule is very busy so everything seen to be rushing here and there but the workload just keep on coming and hopefully today is back to normal rather than rush even more :O

Tomorrow presentation is a nightmare because i facing 2 king kong manager (Highest and Higher of my course) :X

Heart pumping v.fast :(

Presentation !!!

I dislike :X

I'm doing my final research before doing my power point as to ensure everything is on plan.
Next week, all my kaki will be back and miss the lunch time, crap joke and sharing but if i wonder will we still contact in the future? I think we will since the bond is already there and beside that,
i just a big brother, grandfather to them so ya lor ... ha ha .. ok la ...

It's raining again :) Cool weather but cannot sleep :X.

Well, i plan to book my Advance Theory and driving lesson after thursday presentation since i have the time to spare and hope to go for a tour to con't my passion in photography but before that, i pray i ca secure a job first before flying away but where got everything so "perfect" sia ... ha .. agree ...

Friday again :)

I'm can't wait to have a good rest , do my presentation , play my favorite Flo and catch up with friends :)

Miss those days walking with you, dinner at downtown east and many more esp changi airport trip which u like it so much but for me is a place that i wish to take wedding photography for any couple because my idea always come from there.... Ok ... life goes on but keep praying.

Now, i shall reward myself to drink mac coffee because i got coupon but coffee is :X ... ya ... ha ha ....

14 days !! I'm can't wait to go !! :X

Saturday trip to P.ubin might be cancel because ah rong is not feeling well so i asking people "Who want to go to P.ubin fr trekking and photography from morning to afternoon only?"Any taker?

Last night, i took a shot an actual shot for this model kit that i bought it few days ago which i going to display it once i get back my own room.

*Random*

My friend is not around so i transform the whole lab into music room where music is priority since nobody will cares for us, let us do it :). I'm still trying to figure out what to make it better for my DVT (Quality Control) system which kinda of giving me more headache but still doing my best.

Somehow i craving for concert ( all kinds of concert) and how i wish i sitting inside NUS auditorium listening to corrinne may & Kavin Hoo playing their beautiful music score or silently listening to Chris Tomin and team playing their guitar chords or or or ... *endless*

Lunch Time ...

Christimas Songs by Chris Tomlin

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Glory Glory !!

I'm enjoyed my FYP but too many "sai gan" to deal with but anyway i slept at 11pm last night.
Brain keep thinking of other factors beside my FYP ... *keep working*

Yesterday, i bought myself a Yamaha YZR-M1 model kit which i aim for it since last year but i delay until now because i need to settle my computer at that period of time but after a period of delaying, i finally can buy this 1:10 figure that cost $30 only :).

I'm can't wait to go for motogp on Oct 25 in sepang circuit :D and get my chance to see Valentino Rossi again.

After last night chat, i disappointed with myself sometime because ...... just disappointed.

Well, i will be playing a new robot for 2hrs only :( and that robot cost 70K which like "OMG".
It's my honor to play with this machine before i leave the school .... *love it*

Now, my boss give me even more harder things to do and require my 100% of thinking :O
Gosh, i don't mind hard work but i don't like last minutes stuff *lol* *sound like i a boss*

My 4 "son's" aka Epson scara machine is sleeping for today so no "nonsense" for today while this "daddy" will be doing his work peacefully :P

Lunch !!! *Cao*

I feel i become the bad guy in everyone eyes :(

O man ...

I'm decided to leave the current cell group due to some private reason which i hope they can understand rather than trying to "invite" me back because i won't want to go back for sure.

This issue let me remember one of the sister (leave the church long ago) who once mention before

"I don't see people can relate to me because they don't understand what going on in my life and think my life is no difference from them (like normal lifestyle) which disappointed me."

Well, i still have my own "kaki" support so ya lor ..

A lot of things to settle now and hope to spare sometime for other things.

I'm craving for photography again because i don't want my skill to drop again. Is there any more places for me to explore ? I want to go West side again as there are some "interesting" places around there but just can't remember the location.

Well, i shall do my FYP while waiting for my boss to check on us again ....

*Rewrite again and again*

I'm was on my way to school and been thinking this issue whether should i continue or should i leave the place because i don't see i can "click" with the people at all even though the words are deep but without support is like "gone case".

The problem come from myself because i don't feel comfortable to share with "stranger"
although we are told not to hide our sin from our fellow bro/sis so we can pray for each other but on the other hand, we are human and have feeling after all. *Hmmm*

Anyway, i will make a decision soon.

For the past few days, my anger is back again so really need to take a break from nonsense that come from every where.

I still feel the support isn't there after all so i should start to walk by myself .....

OMG !! I forgot to do that last night and i left 15hrs to go !!!

Cum !! I just upload 1 file from my laptop and 3 more at desktop :O

11pm (singapore time) close !!

This is the version i love the most :D

No time to update what happening in my lab.

I'm been busy with my FYP since last week because of unclear instruction by my eric Sxxx but at least yesterday he told me the clearer picture, i back on track again. Anyway, i cannot wait to see my idols again :P .... V.R !! Moto GP !!

Spring Cleaning --> Format 2 computer --> Arrange my table --> ?

Tomorrow, i and sis will be going to Ikea to buy some boxes for our christian books as we really lack of space and is freaking messy when you have to stack here and there.

Finish install Window 7 ultimate (Original Version) and thank bro for buying that account from his friend who is a member of Microsoft. That how i got it before officially release in the world.

Disappointed after listening and reflecting about yesterday dinner @ CA. I'm hope thing will get easier than before but i guess, i just a small role in that "drama" yet playing a important character.
Anyway, how many season liao ? Gosh, i going to watch my CSI S10EP1 :)

*My hand is always there no matter what happen ...... *

The waiting is finally over. I'm just receive my result at 8.05am and is damn scary to the point my heart almost burst out because i don't want to repeat again and by the GRACE OF GOD, i finally pass all the modules and is 1 step closer to exit of NYP.

Most of my friends pass their year 3 and really happy for them :) .

As from now, i can do more things than before like learning "Driving license , Maya 3D , Solid Work , PS and many more".

Thank for praying :D

Less than 15hrs to go.
I'm praying and worries that my result will be extreme bad.

Praying --> Praying --> Keep praying ..

Every of my friends is praying for me now : )

Jer 3:33 // John 14:1 // Phil 4:13

God, i really worry : (

Mission Flame

New Finisher T-shirt for 42km runner and is quite
nice but .... hmm ... the more i look, the more i feel not nice any more





Will u print yr timing ?

For the first time ever, runners in this category will be given the option of printing their finishing times on the back of their finisher’s T-shirt.

Time to resume my exercise because i getting tired easily.

By next week, i must send in my 4 photos for Asian Geographic and hope i can win a small prize
rather than nothing again because is something i wish to give back to my parent ...

Nothing to update as from now but do check out the photography blog :)

Wondering what to write for this entry because is a piece of white sheet paper without question nor answer but to draw out with your imagination.

God, you hear us daily :)

Check out my photography blog *Updated*

Tired

Later tonight, i must make a decision to fight on or to let it go as the indirect way been told by her mom. I totally disagree with what some of the brothers comment because they don't see the whole picture nor know anything but on the other hand, i cannot blame them too.

The winding path ........

Yesterday was like "battle at the end of the edge" with the robotics coding. Finally, i de-code it and this bugger is finally under my shoes so i can submit my report to my boss by this weekend :D.

911 for today ....... sad .....

Playing my baby machine again for today FYP.

Finally, my boss is giving us task to do

I'm must do my best to achieve my best result

Mr.Eric Siew is a nice lecturer and a big joker

Just now, i re-study this amazing robots in my lab and don't know whether i will be playing with it again during my FYP but is really a cool robot :). I'm love it :D

Been looking for my teacher for the past 1 day and today he also not in O_O"

Anyway, i finally have a room to do my work

Jia u :D

Result will be out in 23-9-09

*Praying and Hoping*

Personally, i felt the reason is a bit harsh because i don't feel there is any wrong to plan Saturday to go out with ITE ministry students for photography teaching trip and fellowship. Just because it hit {} and ask me "plan my time flexibility a bit and try not to miss too much"

I'm a bit upset when i heard that sentence (bold).

Maybe this is an act of concern and thank but personally i feel this is his/her saturday and there is no right/wrong for him/her to go out if there is a need plus he/she is old enough to take responsible for their act so why must say until like that.

That's my stand for this issue.

Happening

Bride Can't Stop Laughing During Vows @ Yahoo! Video

Bye Bye, my brother pass me his viewsonic 17inc LCD display that serve me less than 3 month but is a 4 years old item. Well, i think i not going to buy view sonic but seriously consider samsung since their color is quite accurate but still i hate to purchase others IT product because of bad experience.

Thank CH for his Audio-Technica SQ 5 headphone which is not bad in overall. I test it with music from soft to hard and it impress me but just that i don't like the suction cover because it make my ear extreme *painful*. Overall, i think the $128 is worth it but i still like sony quality :)

Tomorrow start school and hopefully i don't KANA lousy supervisor :*

Books and still books ....

Self-learning Maya 3D and Lightroom ...

Something i really want to explore myself beyond 3D world

Moment Photography blog is open :)

Enjoy :D

http://ourquitemoment.blogspot.com/

Finally, i went for my photography trip BUT is a disappointed one :(.

Personally i felt i no longer good at photography especially in Singapore where so many places have change to modern style which kinda of disappointed. Time to fly out of Singapore :D.

Quite a lot of people like this pix :D

I'm really love this movie. Please go and watch :D.

I love the quote from her mother "Our gifts is given by God"

OK. I'm wasn't happy because my 2 weeks of resting is cut short to 5 days ONLY because of the H1N1 issue during July and guess what, we are the affected FYP & IAP students :(. *G.S*

All my plans is gone and now have to push forward everything like mad cow diseases but no choice,
i still have to go for my mini photography trip in Singapore and tomorrow i will be likely to go back this "?" place again but with friends.

Anyway, i need a nice sleep and more exercise to "kill" those fats at my body :) but now, i want to read more books :D BUT NO TEXTBOOKS !! THANKS *hurhur*

WHERE THE HELL IS KEVIN ??

Where are you ??
Ans: Around Singapore (3-9-09 onwards)

Doing?
Ans: Relax , Photography , Training , hiking , Swimming, Cooking and Praying


Any more?
Ans: Catch up with friends, reading, sleep, overnight photography, explore Singapore

Call you ?
Ans: I will prefer sms than call unless urgent

Time to pack my stuff :)

Here i come ~.~/~~~~~~~

Before that, let us watch this video :D

*500th post :)*

Planning where should i go after my last paper? *Planning*

Here ? There ? Side ? Below ? That make me wondering again :O

Admit i still a bit playful in some area in my life especially come to photography but isn't that my job scope as a photographer? :<

Keen to find a part-time job actually ......

Extreme tiring after i reach home from orchard road. By the way, i take a break to relax myself and company victor to buy his F1 stuff so Jerry commented "Is it worth it?" but it really depend
on the person himself so i hope he like it. On our way out, he asked a question "........" and we were quite shock because by right he should know la but he asked *private thing*.

Went to Luck Plaza to have lunch and i really love the fish and chip that is so nice until i crave for 2nd house soon plus if next time anyone going to orchard, PLEASE bring your OWN water bottle. We wanted to buy a drink and i saw a CAN drink selling $2 and like DAYLIGHT ROBBERY.

Anyway, i will post up some latest pix after my exam and time to save extra money too :)

Sleep liao. nITe

Stupid window live update screw up my computer but never mind , i will format my com soon after trying out all the photo shop plug-in.

I'm been reading A.W.Tozer books for the past 2 weeks and he point out some questions that make me ask myself some real serious question * shall not share because is a private issue*

Ok. Sleep.

MSN spoil due to window live update and corrupted my system file :(

If you have anything important issue to speak to me,
please call my house number OR sms to my phone.

Really a bloody war for today paper.

Lecturer cheated us the tips

Paper extreme hard

Close door and sleep

Life goes on ....

Bravo team, prepare to fight

Go Go Go ......

12.30pm - 2.30pm @ block S level 4

Pray for me and my friends. Thank you so much :)

Battle Zone XY ( EG 3229 Automation Machine Design)

Recruits for C1 & C2

Ladies
Jing Ni // Esther Lee

Gentleman
Alan Phua // Ming xu // Jun Hao // Zhi Xin // Di (Malay friend) // Timothy Yeo

My another friend Jerry EE taking Thermo fluid on Thursday as he is not taking this EG3229.

Thank you very much !!!

All my classmate said "Die la, tomorrow paper confirm cui". I'm confess this module is very hard but i reply "U still have to face it so do your best :D"

Wondering why i still can be so calm or is it i know my chances is slim? Nevertheless, i told my family member's and some friends that "I do my best".

To be honest, i really scare but i must keep myself a firm position so that i won't "buga" when i see the paper tomorrow afternoon.

I know there are many people had been praying for me since last month and i really touch by their faith. My wish biggest wish is not about my sister award but to tell God that "I'm pass" so i can start to find job after graduate .......

Thank you for all the smiles you give to me. It motivate me as i look back my time with you all in 2008.

Thousand smiles *Kids from Thailand and Myanmar*

Endure -- > Endure -- > Endure ah !!

Too many things to remember and left a bit of long-winded sentence to remembered by hard

I hope i can do it well so i can pass ....

Battle Zone XY in 1 days time

JIA U C2 CLASSMATES :)

Play my guitar until skin torn *OMG*











Anyway, sis just came back from KL and bought for me this watch *kawaii*











Sleep ... nite

My tears just roll down after watching 明星志工队 or Star for a cause on channel 8 Thursday 8pm. It let me remembered my trip 2 trips in 2008 ( Thailand and Myanmar) for volunteer work and mission trip.



Just now, mommy walk pass me and i told her i want to go back now because i really miss them and the simple life over there. During my mission trip in Myanmar, Irene aka Da ma once told me to remembered Jeremiah 33:3 whenever i feel depress or lost in my life because i told her my journey so she just want me to remember that verse.

Finish chatting with Pris, she also comment something about my career which kinda agree but from now, i want to wrap up and start to earn $$ before pursue my degree in local *confirm* plus i can't wait to go back Myanmar now ... : )

Head is spinning even more after reading "The size of the soul".
Personally, i feel A.T.Z point out issue that already happen right now
and think again, he predict all the cause and facts 40 years ago and it did happen after 40 years.

I'm start to understand why some people is disappointed in the church setting like what bro X share with me few days ago through MSN which i really agree with him.

Ok. I'm have prepared myself to fight for monday paper

Battle XY in 4 days time

Interested to try out if ever i have the chance. They using 4/3 micro mirrorless format sensor. The plus point for this product will be the art filter which correct colors up to 70% *wow*

So Funny !!

Copyright by Kevin Loke ©

I'm will be back someday where the time comes.
Anyway, i need to faster edit GL and Shri photos because is already 2 month 12 days (as from now) and still no time to edit :X.

Study hard everyone :D

Battle Zone XY in 5days time

If this is something i passionate at, i will do it.
People asking me "What is your career after you graduate poly?"
There are some jobs that already in my mind but it all depend on the market itself.
Everyone want to soar before retired so do i want to give her a comfortable life if marriage is God plan for us.

After looking at project moment again and again, i learn to stay strong even times are very bad because someone is holding my hand, walk through the dead of the valley.

I wish i can do moment project 2 in the upcoming years and if i do, this is a blessing from God.

Random post again. *Ops :X*

Learning how to play this song

What reason have I to doubt
Why would I dwell in fear
When all I have known is grace
My future in Christ is clear

My sins have been paid in full
There’s no condemnation here
I live in the good of this
My Father has brought me near
I’m leaving my fears behind me now

Chorus
The old is gone, the new has come
What You complete is completely done
We’re heirs with Christ, the victory won
What You complete is completely done

I don’t know what lies ahead
What if I fail again
You are my confidence
You’ll keep me to the end
I’m leaving my fears behind me now

Free download this song

http://www.sovereigngracestore.com/ProductInfo.aspx?productid=M4270-02-51

© 2009 Sovereign Grace Worship (ASCAP)

Came back from Adidas shop with daddy. I'm wasn't happy at all because the running short and running singlet that i keen to buy is FREAKING more expensive than i thought in the first place.





Last time, i saw the price tag is $42 but now is $55 (increase by $13) which piss me off on the spot and even i add in the 20% off, it didn't make sense to me because i not willing to pay such a huge price for a running short. Da Jie "gai siao" me to buy brooks which cost lesser than $40. I will go and take a look and truly, it is time to often use my "slash" price tactics whenever i go.

Study --> Exam --> Holiday. I'm wonder why Mr.chok make that paper so hard to do :(.
Anyway, i just dont' bother but to study the rest of the 2 papers.....

4 books to read for the next 2 month. I admit A.W.Tozer book isn't the type of easy book to read but on the other hand, i gain a lot of knowledge from his series
*More harder to understand than John piper books*











Flo !! I'm master plucking 2 songs :) ... Demo soon ...











Daddy birthday (16-8-09). Mommy and I bought this for him :D
The rest should be giving him ang bao :)

Tomorrow battle zone X (0830 - 1000) & (1400 - 1530)
*Pray for me and my friends :)*

The soldier's name are

C J N aka Da Jie
J E aka Mo beng
A P K L aka Lun Lun
M Za di aka di
L J H aka Da Ge or Old man

Platoon, please get ready in 0700hrs ... Go Go Go

Quiz wasn't hard but we must not over confident because sometime disappointment might just happen to me/you so if you do your best, i feel it is good enough because God doesn't look at my result but my heart. Anyway, i learning how to deal with over confident in my heart which always lead to depression when fail *sian*


Yesterday, i finally bought this book called "The Attributes of God Volume 2 with Study Guide: Deeper into the Father's Heart" from A.Z.Tozer". Tempted to buy that book last month but because that time, i need to purchase that "J.O" book which cost me $23.90 and the x textbook cost another $30 which really boom my wallet :( *Haiz* *Poor Student*

Well, i have no regret to spend a bit of extra for this month to purchase A.Z.Tozer's book :)
Simply worth it :D

11/9/09

10.30pm, i still at the lab doing drawing

Finally ....

Drawing is done ...

Touch up and submit tomorrow : D

THANK GOD !!

12/9/09

Quiz time !! I must wack :I

Study Hard and Relax for a moment. That is what i looking forward in Sept where i can go for photography without any burden nor people wonder where am i going this time. Some of the places are going to be dangerous yet yet passion overcome fear so this is me as a photographer .....

I want to wrap up project "Moment" and publish at my web page :). Next project is Cherish!!

1am and i still doing my project which due in 14hrs from now. Thank God because everything is ready but i need to face the computer for about 2-3 hrs to do the power point and report.
Later in the evening, i really pray that the screw up drawing will restore by my backup file so that i can wrap up asap....

Haiz .....

Today, i should be a happy person after finishing my drawing :) BUT DISASTER come in OO"

My stupid file screw up again for the 3rd time !! I'm about to finish it and submit on Friday ...

Now .... haiz :(

Very funny !!



Anyway, don't try this @ home :)

I'm miss this dream team call "Sabai Sabai" for my Thailand trip.

My own personal prayer is that God will send me for another mission trip in 2010 and also hoping Desiree can tag along with me
(if this is his will for her).

Right now, i must pass the exam !!


Getting more white hairs than before *cum*

Finally, i have something to write for this blog so is still alive as from now. Next year, senior Pastor Joshua Harris will release his new book call "Dug Down Deep" and i can't wait to read it now !! I wonder ah seng can buy for me before he come back from state :X

From the Back Cover:
I know from experience that it's possible to be a Christian but live life on the surface. The surface can be empty tradition. It can be emotionalism. It can be doctrine without application. I've done it all. I've spent my share of time on the sandy beaches of superficial Christianity.

This book is the story of how I learned to dig into truth and build my life on a real knowledge of God. How I first discovered that orthodoxy isn't just for old men but for anyone who longs to know a God who is bigger and more real and more glorious than the human mind can imagine.

The irony of my story is that the very things I needed, even longed for in my relationship with God, were wrapped up in the very things I was so sure could do me no good. I didn't understand that seemingly worn-out words like theology, doctrine, and orthodoxy were the pathway to the mysterious, awe-filled experience of truly knowing the living Jesus Christ.

They told the story of the Person I longed to know.

--Joshua Harris, Dug Down Deep

The Story Behind the Title:
The name for the book was inspired by a parable that Jesus told. Last summer I was on a beach in Florida reading Luke 6 and I came to the familiar story of the two builders. One built his house on sand and it was washed away by a flood. But the other "dug down deep and laid the foundation on rock" (Luke 6:48 NIV). When the torrent struck, his house stood firm.

Jesus said that the man who built his house on rock was a picture of the person who comes to him, listens to his words and them puts them into practice. That simple, slightly off-beat phrase "dug down deep" jumped out at me. And I knew I wanted to use that as name of the book I was writing. For me, it sums up the heart of what it means to build your life on what Scripture calls sound doctrine. Ultimately it's all about the person and work of Jesus. It's about coming to him, hearing his words and then putting them into practice.

Dug Down Deep has eleven chapters--eight of which are reflections of key Christian beliefs including the Doctrine of God, Scripture, the Person and Work of Christ, the Atonement and the Holy Spirit. The book is very personal and narrative-driven. I share the questions, misconceptions and hang-ups I've had what it's meant to allow Scripture's truth to reshape my thinking.

I hope the book will be accessible to people who might not normally read theological books. That includes Christians who are turned-off by doctrinally faithful but arrogant believers as well as people who are skeptical of the usefulness of Christian doctrine. I also hope that it will be given to friends outside the faith who have never really understood basic Christian beliefs.

Many of you have prayed for me during the writing of this book. Thank you so much. If you get to read the book, I hope you'll be encouraged. Please continue to pray as the final stages of copy editing, proofing and design are finished by the publisher.

Copyright: Joshua Harris blog


I found this from his blog ... Ha Ha ....