Let's me review my 2012

A journey about you and me

Looking back the past 12mths, i have been challenge by lot of struggles and finally, i have come to the ending point and is a tough one as i need to made major decision that will change everything in my journey between
me and God.

2012 and is time to go.

Being of 2012, i did share with some of my brothers that i will be coming back to TPBC to settle some unsolved issue. I'm sorry that i won't be sharing what actually cause me to leave this church after 8 years of wondering time together with the peoples over there but i just want to say thank you for their effort and helping hand along my ways. 

I'm thank God that i have settle all the issue between me and her and silently forgive the sister that backstab me that causes this relationship into the higest peak. Thank God for reminding me not to 纠结 anyone between both party so finally on march, i have clear that with the help of WX and TM to be my withness so that all between both of us. As for the sister that backstab me, i forgive her in my prayer not in person because no point waste my time facing her so that all i want to say.

Love Life

缘起, 你在人海中看到我。缘灭, 我在人海中看到你。

Sad to say about my love life because for the past 1 years plus, i came across very nice ladies but all non-christian so sometime i feel stupid to obey what they say cannot mix together. Lots of my friends scold me lot of reasons but i still insist to obey. I'm not a super heroes to defend myself from all this tempation either i holy man but i really like to start my own family as a old man now. How long or will there be ?

青春不长在，抓紧谈恋爱

Agree ?

2013, what next ?

Many things in my list to do and to complted but to me now is to restore back my spiritual life with him after 2 years of RRR (Rebuild, Repair , Restore) so now is time to see will that be work or a failure?

2013 going to be deadly year for me to face.

刚刚看了非诚勿扰十月的，看到骡骑的手开始动的很多，她被男嘉宾打动了也有一点哭。还是不成功 :(

Because of family value and background, she cannot accept the man answer.

After watch so much ep, I realize that I thankful to GOD that he help me to unknot myself the pain from my previous relationship.

I'm want to said Ich bin hier, wo bist du?

缘起, 你在人海中看到我。缘灭, 我在人海中看到你。

Isn't that true ? It's was how I feel when I need to give up all the possible ladies I can approach but this might be part of growing up ? I don't know ...

Will remembered this words in my mind

没有后悔要离开因为我真的被伤害了。
过去以来，我以为可以放下来但是我办不到因为我被伤痕太过深了。

I'm can assume is time to go somewhere else where I will be passionate and re-equip myself again like in the past.

8 years in the current place and is sad that I have to leave and to start all over again but if this is the way to learn, I willing to do it.

Bring me back to who am I father,
I'm deeply rotten and time to clean up the mess and be with u

看了《非诚勿扰》，我开始长大了。

Honestly, I was touch by some of the guys whom really paid everything (include pride) to secure a relationship with the females constants even is just a 20mins trying and is great, I like it.

Sometime I look back, am I missing my mark just because I obey and isn't that a bit ... Fine. Just feel sad sometime but have to hide my disappointment and honestly speaking, am I so bad ?

Gosh. Perhaps she not from Singapore but overseas.

Recovered from drought and aimless period of time where I lost my joy in camera and life.

Took 5 months of precious recovery time in exchange of searching answers and ideas about life. Perhaps is a moment of truth that there are some ways u cannot change neither recreate it because is a fix. Honestly speaking, I do have mix feeling between but is life so need to move on.