This thought have been in my mind for very long time and is time to make a decision soon or later. When I decide to come back to my old church, the first few priorities are the following

1. Settle my conflict with her
2. Pastor for counseling
3. Settle down and fellowship if can
4. If no 3 fail, time to move out
5. Find a church that I feel belong.

After a while, I still cannot fit into what is means to be a fellowship place and is time to go somewhere and start new because i somehow cannot move on neither i been learning. Sad truth isn't it and when i call for guideline, there isn't anyone beside me and it seem all of us damn busy.

My question is "fellowship ? We are like damn hanging on the air man"
Maybe is time to move and I been trying hard till I feel lets just stop it.

Thank you ! It's goodbye time and time to visit church again.